faraday

wish things were a bit easier

Rêverie, L. 68

100th post. ive been missing playing piano again
spotify.link/iGcoVWDcRXb

or maybe gustave? hmm. i just dont know how to draw beards though

i want to draw vent art but its stuck in my head. when i try to sketch it just doesnt look good. upsetting. i also want to draw a "i think were gonna have to kill this guy" picture of viktor and verso(coe33). just for me. because its so niche no one out there is going to make it if i dont

thought: i should say "meow" more often

i feel like a low quality jpeg

my art is so uninteresting lately its bothering me. i wish i could do more

its social rehabilitation. i have agoraphobia so i have a really hard time leaving my house. my job is to just go there and learn how to be less anxious around other people

i did go to rehab today. read science magazines the whole time again. then for the rest of the day i didnt really do anything. watched another movie. yay me

autumn makes me so sleepy the days just pass in a blur. i didnt go to rehab at all last week so im trying to go tomorrow. its been almost two months now and it still makes me anxious enough to vomit

managed to draw something today. its me

im a twilight fan now

i dont think ill ever get over feeling shy posting about my interests on *my own* account, its so stupid. severe lack of viktorposting here even though he occupies my thoughts most of the day. i get embarassed typing it all out and then give up

my interpretation was that the snake is bad thoughts ive been having recently and its poisoning me from inside out, devouring me untill im hollow. id like to have more nice dreams instead of this

saw a dream where a poisonous snake ate my brains and then slithered down my spine to eat the rest of my organs

(coe33 vague spoilers) okay maybe my estimate of "halfway done" was a little off, finished act 1 today and then played a little further after that. i knew he was gonna die because i got spoiled (own fault), but i really liked him so feeling a little sad today. not really trusting this new guy

tried drawing on my tablet i feel so rusty... ive been thinking about an iron maiden themed faust, kind of a monster design. she has too many human shaped forms, i want something different even if i end up never drawing it again

awful day. worst in a while. drew meaningless patterns to get my mind off things. last one i drew with my left hand again. hope tomorrow is better

watched movies today with a friend and had fun. i havent been drawing at all again. i think im about halfway done with coe33

YouTube video by Sandfall Interactive Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 (Original Soundtrack) 20 - Spring Meadows - Nightfall

love the ost so far, adding them to my drawing bgm list as i go
youtu.be/gF9I1HQbd0Y?...

ive only heard good things too, thanks chief

left hand faust i drew at rehab. very up and down days recently. bought expedition 33 today very excited to play it because ive managed to avoid all spoilers. saw a dream where a big fluffy werewolf hugged me, if any werewolves are reading this please contact me and give me a chance. thank you

now to never log in again

had to pull till hard pity, but yay. i saved up gems for a good while

my viktorling&pillow arrived today and im happy but wow.... im subhuman trash

now that im a little less rusty with drawing i cant come up with anything to draw. i only get good ideas when im off my meds

one fear: redrawing old art but the new one ends up worse than the original

i havent drawn the bunny mascot version in a good while... hmm

more old faust art... makes me feel a little nostalgic. her ears and sleeves got bigger and bigger as time went on lol

this doodle &poem (if you could call it that) i made in 20 minutes is still one of my fav faust drawings ive done. i remember exactly what prompted me to draw it and how i felt. i want to redraw some more of my old art so im sorting through them