faraday

hrmm.... ive been mostly eating plain greek yogurt with toppings but i like strawberry and vanilla the most i think

thank you! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

oh and ive been spending way too much time on league.... im terribly ill.... and ive been playing pathologic! very cool (and terribly frustrating). installed ff12 but havent gotten around to playing it yet

i end up posting here very sporadically because nothing ever happens to me and i have nothing to say. been really into yogurt lately

i was gone for over a month from rehab, but ill try my hardest to go normally again from now on. new year new me and all that. really itching to draw something, wish i could scratch the inner walls of my skull

got a new diary today (yet to be decorated). i thought writing down about the days might be good for my memory, since things tend to blur together

Nettles

the "to love me is to suffer me" line has really stuck with me open.spotify.com/track/02kTd6...

Go Slowly

open.spotify.com/track/6yiSyu...

big into leg warmers lately. paired with my brown boots it makes me feel like i have deer hooves

i do have a bunch of illustration ideas ive been rotating in my head, mostly from dreams ive seen recently. but actually sitting down and drawing something has been the hard part. usually feel like doing something else instead, but im getting so rusty!!

i also want to draw more characters than just faust. i feel like ive been limiting myself quite a lot subconciously

i wanna make more ocs (and redesign existing ones), get back into journaling and traditional art and just make more stuff!!!!!!! i was so so lazy last year i feel like i have to just make something even if its bad!! something out of my comfort zone. hmm

i went to theater yesterday and drank a lot of whiskey

happy new year!! my 2026 resolutions are improving my physical wellbeing, learning embroidery and trying to be more honest to myself

a pig is looking at a roasted turkey in a christmas scene ALT: a pig is looking at a roasted turkey in a christmas scene

joyous christmas to you all !!

going home today. i miss my pc

traveling!!! going up north to see my best friend

feeling alright today, its ffxiv patch day. yay

at what point does holding up hope turn naive and idiotic

i hate my meds so much. i hate this stupid body. i just dont want to do this anymore. feels like im drowning

cutting doesnt even really upset me anymore. it feels like nothing. like routine. i think that scares me the most. i keep wishing for a better tomorrow but it never comes

i feel like im no good for anything. uncertainty makes me so nervous. cant stop crying, even my meds wont help

deep deep deep sadness today. things are out of my control again

The Herald's Vision (feat. Kelci Hahn)

open.spotify.com/track/3aMg1F...

ordered a jayce plushie to accompany my viktor one as a christmas present to myself hehe

i reinstalled league. im sorry everyone

rehab tomorrow, all i can do is try my best

worst day in a while. a stupid childish part of me wishes a knight in shining armor would save me from this curse, even just to have someone hold me while the pain passes or to rub my back when i vomit

struggling a little with eating again. old habits die hard i suppose

ive been having thoughts about jayce talis that would set back feminism by at least 50 years