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I have seen very reasonable takes, however that’s not what I’m seeing like 80% of the time it’s weird

Idk being called a DEI f*g for enjoying something is kind of way further out there than rational thought lol

I hope so as well. Naturally for any company at this point

Check the discord* since I’m untrustworthy of patreon any longer I just post stuff there lol

Patrons got several alts of this btw ;)

I’m dubbing ‘Marathon Derangement Syndrome’ a real thing we need medication for atp.
It’s ok not to like something but when you’re going through the Marathon keyword tag just to spew negativity at people enjoying something, you have a problem my dude. It’s not healthy to be this mad at a game.

Also thank you all for your kind comments. I didn’t respond to everyone and sort of just hopped off and played games with friends last night.

Thank you.

No worries lol thank you!

what?

Somewhat. I just want to feel like I accomplished something today/this week at this point

gonna draw the bnnuy tonight to break back into art cuz fuck it I want to draw her. uncensored ref cuz I’m feelin generous today idk

I think also I just don’t see my work as that good/good enough to wait for

I’m inspired by so many things I think people don’t realize because what I draw doesn’t reflect it and it makes me feel bad/weird that it’s not the case.

The feeling of “I want to draw more things I think are cool but my mind can’t bring itself to actually focus on it” is like living in hell.

I don’t want to just do pinup work/suggestive/nsfw. I genuinely, genuinely wish I could pivot but I can’t.

I’m pretty good at spotting it but when it’s like a 7 year old account with really basic takes on regular shit for most of the posts it just makes me wonder why lol

I still hear that theme cuz Pendulum also fucks

Also if you openly enjoy something someone just HAS TO let you know why they don’t like it.

Like I DONT CARE. You have to go out of your way to speak at someone who’s obviously enjoying something. Just to be that little thorn of “yeah cool, but…”

Like my last art post was 5 days ago and seeing that made me feel so bad like I was a failure.

I wish my brain was normal. I wish I had properly regulated emotions. You don’t get it it’s like a prison im trying to break out of. I’m watching the world turn and I’m fighting my own hands just to move

I once had someone point out (or attempt to) the period of time between my posts and it made me feel so dehumanized that I just wanted to stop trying to keep up with feeds/algo altogether.

I’m not a machine but I feel like I have to be now and it’s miserable.

I’m not a bot on a timer.

It feels that way very much so

I’m sorry also for the lack of art. I have been so depressed that I have had trouble waking up/doing most anything this month.

I don’t want to feel this way because it compounds and snowballs so badly because I value my productivity. And when I’m not it makes me feel like I’m a waste of air.

Twitter was never fully chill but holy hell does the all black theme now feel so bleak on top of how “ur dumb actually for noticing things and liking things” crowd feels so much more prominent now.

Also whenever I qrt something it gets insane reach and interactions. But art posts do jack squat. It’s so shit. I don’t get what that app is for anymore.

twitter has become so hostile that I’m being told to die for wanting a Motorstorm port to PC, and that I’m dumb for noticing little details of a retro obscure rock paper scissors arcade game from Japan.

I don’t get it. Like people just go insane on the dumbest shit now.

Blackbird

Leiana has a letter for you 🎊💝

Haha* not Gaga tf lol

Thank you! 🙏

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