thesheeark - commissionsCLOSED

I’ll contact those I have to as I catch up, but I wont be posting for a while. You can post your finished comms, but I just need time, I don’t want the traffic in this time.

In all that time I haven’t drawn once. My only focus was Lex, and then getting him back. I’ll practice a lil before I get back into the swing of things and catch up. I don’t wanna talk to nobody, I’m grieving, and with that is so much anger and hurt. You don’t need that coming outta me at ya.

I have his ashes now. I can hold him again. But I don’t recognize myself. I didn’t really eat during all of this, just drank caffeine to stay awake for it all. I have no appetite still. Didn’t realize how hurt I was until I stopped moving. I’m really just recovering at the moment.

Where I’ve been? Working 24/7, never even coming home since he died except once to make sure the food dispenser was full for Broadway. Just to get my baby back. They would only hold him for so long so I fought like hell with all I could to get him back.

He’s gone

Oh also, yeah bsky is blocked for me in MS. So most wifi blocks me. Only those on hughesnet work bc our wifi is from TN or something. At&t is dominant here, and based in MS, including my job. So mutuals, hit me on Discord first since I’m rarely home. :3

4-once I have my REGULAR monthly bills paid this month all should be good bc they all are due after what is owed is completed. My boss has thankfully given overtime and been feeding me since every penny went to bills, and things have worked in my favor thus far. Almost there guys. Almost free.

3-And that’s why I have to keep going back to combat it all. Also Lex still wont fucking eat, meaning I have to STILL take necessary trips back to care for him. So everyday is an all day trip, most spent on foot. It’s been a lot and I’m exhausted.

2-It’s not as simple as only going once unfortunately. But I basically have to pay half my bills TWICE in the same month, and they are the heavy hitters already. I already had an art queue so opted to making deals with the companies instead. Deals many didn’t adhere to

1-The reason it’s taking so long is bc I gotta walk for miles everyday since the bus only has certain stops. My bills have been a disaster simply bc I was paid too late too little ONCE and it literally fucked up these 2 months now I gotta walk back and forth between all this working it out.

It's very sweet, and if anything flattering. But it does feel bad to break hearts. Please tell me this is just a tactic you've also experienced, bc if it's real that means I really am breaking hearts and that's super depressing. I'll have to find a way to not be appealing thru the phone. 😥

I'm CONVINCED it's a sale tactic but everyone I talk to about it says that's not their experience and I'm like WHAT?!

Like I was known to have a sultry voice as a gal so it made sense, but HRT changed that. So like, is it just ME? As in the personality bleeding thru my voice??? I'm so confused.

I have spent so much time on call with call centers trying to be able to pay them and stuff and almost every Indian, male of female has wanted to date me. And this has been a thing for awhile. Like willing to cross the water swooning I spend much of the call kindly turning them down.

Lexington is also just barely beginning to eat as of 2 days ago. Micro amounts, but round the clock care still needed.

Almost back ya’ll. I had to be all over town all the time, (walking and bussing, cuz no gas money). Getting close to a point I can be at the computer again, which then means I can draw. Still gotta combat a few things, but once that’s over I’m back.

Will hopefully be back soon. More trips to vet, Lex needs round the clock care and doing overtime to afford it all. Bank in negatives and all that. Been a very busy bad time over here :/

This is a test from tokimeki

Just incase my access is altered.

Ok well this is concerning bc I am in MS….
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If I lose access here I will update my links on my profile biolink

The last 2 bills were the heavy hitters, and don’t do late fees as far as I’m aware. So fml. I’m calling both to see what I can do but not expecting anything :/

Crossroads did. But used care credit for the hospital. It took ALL of carecredit and when I needed more was denied, so had to pay rest outta the bill money or basically surrender Lex. Crossroads will take my entire first paycheck this friday. All of it.

My first paycheck is only 2-3 days worth of training and goes to the vet. It’s the next ones that include all my dang hours. Fuck me.

Well lexington is back, but his care isn’t over. It took everything from me, even the stuff for bills. So now I need $300. Probs is I need it in the next 2 days. That’s impossible. good grief. I don’t even think there are late fees, they just end it. This month is hell. paychecks just come too late

Got to visit him for an hour, he was a bit more animated, but still wont eat. They’re going to force feed liquid calories tonight hopefully. He’s always been difficult about food so not surprised, but his life is on the line so I wish he wasn’t so damn stubborn

Did You Know news:

Kevin Roberts the architect of the Heritage Foundation's #Project2025 did his Master Thesis & Ph.D dissertation on slavery & how Blk folks overcame it. He weaponized this knowledge & used it to come up with harmful policies so freedom tactics couldn't be used this time.
#BlackSky

The students are back and while I’m waiting for them to settle in lex at the vet hospital we’re all just vibing at the nearby Sonic and someone’s blasting Disney songs. It’s healing me

Thx, I’m friggen exhausted from this. X(

He’s staying overnight in the vet hospital
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I lost Jagger round this time last year I’m not ready to lose Lex

We’re at the vet hospital again :(

He's worse.
I have to take Lex to the veterinary hospital today :(

i do everything i can to create opportunity for moments like this so people can see there’s support for us out there in a time that support can sometimes seem scarce – this one is pretty special 🏳️‍⚧️