jewelia howard💖✨🏳️‍⚧️ (they/them)

tell me why i get accepted into a market that im super excited about and then within 5 minutes am having a full breakdown where i feel like a fraud whos career is gonna fall apart any second

when someone gives you a lil sampler of an update of someone you hate call that an amuse douche

impolitely begging me on the internet to stop being fuckin weird

family christmas is so exhausting ive been misgendered all day and theres been so many sudden loud noises im frazzled and i just want to sleep and cry

i need to redye my hair today but im already so deeply frazzled i cannot face the thought of existing without my noise cancelling headphones for the hour or two it’d take

sure wish this time of year didnt feel so deeply and profoundly overwhelming

i saw this before watching the episode but still nothing could have prepared me

sometimes a cuck chair’s a boat

a calendar is a map of time

daily affirmations:
my tonsils will return to a normal size soon
when i wake up i wont be able to feel the back of my throat when i swallow
i will stop being in pain without relying on painkillers

i accidentally sent myself into an anxiety spiral thinking about taxes and business expenses and how i’m going to be poor for the rest of my life and that kinda sucks actually

“AI is clearly sticking around so you have to get used to it” wrong. I don’t have to get used to shit. I am a practiced hater and I can keep this going for decades if I am required to

“it stopped for a reason, stay out of my life” words to live by

right?? its wild, i always kind of forget

just watched my old tiktoks to hear how different my voice used to be and it truly is wild how much testosterone has changed my voice and god i like it so much more now

wild that theres anyone in the year of our lord 1025 that still thinks attack helicopter pronoun jokes are funny and not wildly transphobic and gross

This is a thousand years worth of Creative NZ government funding

“i wont have YOU telling me whats too moist to double team”

“well you’re not a very good cuck then are you?”

“like the gull pit but sand”

“without you its not a threesome”

“i feel like an unfuckable clown”

asked my therapist what he thinks of closer by ne-yo and he said “i dont live that kind of lifestyle” and im def stealing that response for everything now

sometimes ur having a real bad mental health time so u spend $30 on fancy vegan cheeses at 2am

sometimes i look at the sunset and im like man this looks so fucking weird if i painted it people would be like what the fuck did u draw that looks nothing like clouds
nature is beautiful

the absolute delight on my face when i recognised @bjcolangelo.bsky.social in the crowd in the new episode of crowd control
i love when my interests collide

“the autism! you can see it in their faces! YOU CAN SEE IT IN THEIR SQUATS!”

“shes an absolute fucking cunt of a bitch”

“i dont know much about god”
“i dont know much about dinosaurs”

petition for my train home to not be replaced by a bus literally every time i go out in the evening 🙃🙃🙃