Eggzy 💀

God I miss them 🥹💕 Not Than poofing out of any awkward situation like always 😂😭

this comic page starts with melinoë rushing forward, thinking "almost there, brother!" once she reaches the mirror of night, she sees zagreus in the distance talking to someone offscreen, wondering if he's talking to someone. (zagreus is usually alone when she meets him.) "are you sure it got in my hair?", zagreus asks. "other side, zag," the other voice responds.

in the next page, we see Thanatos in the foreground. he's on Zagreus's bed, pulling up the sheets to hide his chest. both he and Melinoë ask at the same time, "Zagreus, who is that?!" in the next panel, Zag tries to explain: "This is- er, *was* Thanatos..." in the background, Thanatos has 'poofed' out of the scene. Melinoë bows and apologizes for the interruption, her expression amused.

bad timing, melinoë 😳
#hades2spoilers

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Lol I barely have any jaw/ tooth pain after my wisdom tooth extraction. However, I've been bedridden since, cause I got a terrible headache no painkiller can stop. My body's reaction to anything is always: headache.

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A painterly digital portrait of a couple set against a gold ochre background and surrounded by red and blue flowers. The woman's hair is dark blue and she is wearing an elegant black and navy dress with flowing sleeves. The man is blonde and he's wearing a grey-ish suit and white shirt underneath. They sit in a tender embrace, the man resting his head in the crook of the woman's neck. A commission for Carley.

A couple portrait commission for the lovely Carley 💙❤️

I'm really happy with how tender it's turned out!

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I'm not actually afraid of the needle tho, but I'm afraid I'll get nauseous and dizzy after 😭 I now don't look either. I just try to relax as much as I can 😩 It does lower the intensity of the vasovagal reflex (or however it's technically called). Especially laying down.

Had to get my wisdom tooth removed and I couldn't care less about them cutting my gums away, yanking at my tooth...but the anaesthetic...got so nauseous 🫠

I hate having needlephobia it's so embarrassing. I used to be too ashamed to tell in advance and would ignore it only to faint. Fair to say I do always admit it tho. But I hate it, like I'm not afraid of the needle, but how my body responds to it ugh 😩

okay now i know my wrapped i can delete spotify once again and actually never return 👋

I'm washing my sheets. Doesn't stop my cat from sleeping on my bed tho 😂

Composers not making it directly lines up with me not drawing fantasy art for most of the year. Especially since Lorne Balfe is my 1 on deezer and I got back into fantasy after switching 😂

First year ever that some random video game composer didn't make the list 😂

Caleb backstory already. My heart 🥺

This is an image with a sci-fi angel, fish bones, and the SAI 2 interface

wip ✦

Drawing of my OC Vick from Ride or Die comic

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Okay this is all super super random and incoherent, but I just felt like venting a little 😩 Perhaps someone can relate lol

Looking back so so many decisions I made on my own gender expression can be related to my art. After i made Dusk, I started to dress more dark, would even wear eyeshadow. When I made Riv, I felt compelled to wear workwear and flannels again. I would experiment with ocs first before myself.

This last bit is actually what made me realize that I'm simply experiencing extreme gender envy. Looking at men makes me dysphoric. I actually came to this realization as I was designing Oz. Was looking up outfits for him and felt so jealous. A week later I had a mental breakdown and came out 😂

Something else that always weirded me out while making ocs was male anatomy. Especially looking up ref. I assumed it must be simply because i'm not attracted to men (honestly dont know about that atp). I can draw a naked woman and not care, but a shirtless man?? oh boi the shame

Also got Dimos a trans guy, whom I felt compelled to make after dreaming about being him. Like....how was I still fooling myself at that point. I swear to god. I even made him trans, because me, a "woman", dreamt about being a dude 😭😭

I think another really telling character I made is Slash (my icon). I somehow really wanted to make a transmasc character. One that looked decidedly more like a guy, but short with soft features. Ngl from the beginning he has always been very much a self insert 💀

I used to be envious of androgynous women at the time. Being jealous of women who could pass as men, felt less shameful I guess. Like just looking more like a guy is enough, I don't want to transition. I don't need to transition. It's a hassle, I'm exaggerating. Yet I'd cry about the thought of it.

I also made a new DnD character Lore, who was like hyper femme. Then covid happened and we switched to online play. This is when I made Dusk a masc nb lesbian. While more masc overall, they are quite femme still. They wear make up, have long hair, don't bind (they're just flat lol), go by they/she.

When I entered my twenties there was a switch. I think I started to think that I was a lesbian and I got super into sapphic art. I made Lou and Aggie. Originally I wanted Lou to be mistaken as a guy, but actually be a girl. Funnily enough around this time I started to dress more femme myself.

At the end of school and start of university I dressed very androgynous. I remember that I stopped thinking about the gender of the characters I'd draw. I'd just draw someone based on how I was feeling at the time. When people would ask if I was drawing a guy or a girl I'd just shrug "I dunno 🤷".

A bit later I started to feel very much not cis, but I didnt know how to describe it. I cut my hair, stopped wearing bras, wanted to bind etc. I also started doing text rp with friends and DnD, and I'd always always play guys. Just regular (awkward) dudes mostly, like no extra designs or anything.

When I was about 15 I was obsessed with femme men/bois. I was into Visual Kei and I loved the trap trope in anime/manga (super toxic). Looking back I think I could relate to looking like a girl, but not being one. I'd make the most girly looking guy ocs (but also never put them in dresses 🤔).

I always thought that I didn't use my art much as self expression. But I was thinking about it yesterday and there is a direct line between what characters I'd draw and my feelings about gender at the time. I do really experiment with gender through my OC's in a way. It's quite interesting 🤔