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i better start getting used to waking up before 6am every fucking weekend i guess

sorry she just drives me fucking insane. im seriously not allowed to have a single problem with literally anything she does or she goes down a fucking laundry list of shit shes made up about me and/or anything about me she deems okay to belittle me for. and then always claims shes such a good mother

brought it up to her and she got pissed off at me thats so awesome. grown ass woman bitching about being told she actually needs to train her dog for him to learn anything. just making shit up about me in the most bad faith way possible so she can get mad at me for my reasonable request

unless i can convince her to start training him in any capacity. but i wouldnt be surprised if she just dismisses it and allows my life to continue being disrupted by a dog i was vehemently against getting for many reasons this being a big one

my mother has now gotten a job that requires her to leave the house before 6am which means im also no longer going to sleep past that time whenever she works bc she refuses to do anything about the dogs separation anxiety. awesome

i went and wandered as much as i am capable of (literally just walked my usual route but i went to see what was down a slightly different path from the park and it just leads back to the same main road. i learnt a lot) and got anew phone cable yay. but didnt have enough for other stuff i need

i need to go out this afternoon i dont think ive left the house in literal weeks . i am not good at it

getting slightly more oc brained again but IN THE WRONG WAY!!! GRR

god gavce me like idk an anxiety disorder andautism bc they knew otherwise id just be pirating everything and thhey hate me

MANY HUMANS EATING AND SWALLING YET NO USE FOUND FOR THE GAG REFLEX

the specific type of autism sadness. do you know what i mean. imjust upset about everything all the time recently

theyve got me in a state of sadness

realising now that the lingering cough is also going to be a fucking nightmare bc i have gag reflex so bad that any amount of persisent coughing is one million times more unpleasant disorder. cool cool cool. potentially 3+ weeks of that? cool. basically wont be able to talk

im seriously being trolled . tail end of the flu and my period starts and its one of the worst ones ive had in a long time. dude

i miss my routines i miss my small daily pleasures

im gonna lose my mind if i have to spend another day in bed bc i cant stand or sit at my desk for long without coughing so hard i almost [YUCK!]

im so gungry why does being ill have to demolish your appetite and make you feel so so sick when you eat

gazing longingly at everyone playing the new 7.35 stuff. that should be me

I WANNA HANG OUT W U...!!!!! we are being kept apart by th3 evil demon named "flu"

being ill is so lonely :[ everyone come hang out ill just hold my breath so no one gets sick

we have bagels for tbe first time in literal years AND I CANT EAT THEM!!!

i keep thinking abt all the yumy food i cant eat bc i have such little appetite.........

i dont think ive ever had the flu before. cool.

realising i probably have the flu CRINGE

i need a nap so bad but the chance of it coming at the expense of my sleep tonight is not very appealing

im not as sluggish as i was yesterday but i feel like 10 times worse in every other way :misery:

i feel so assssssssss ahhhhhhhhh

SHMOOPSY

this problem would be solved if i had people to go with but i dont because i cant go to the places that would give me an opportunity to make friends do you see the problem