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honestlyyyyu it’s so stressful!! especially since julian has like 4 different medical conditions lmao like please if we could have just one little 3 day trip to the beach julian please

please join me in staring into the fire and just,, staring,,

julian has apparently hidden himself so well and won’t come out to eat or anything that the petsitter is scared he somehow escaped 😩 i really doubt he did i think he’s just hiding really well but julian please if you could just be fine for another day please

thank you god it was so gorgeous so dreamy

it was so incredible and smelled so sweet and piney and earthy mossy forest floor and sea salty and cedar lemony aaaaaa

sunset golden on sand dunes and conifers

a place you probably will see some version of in some fic later because i loved it so much

a sandy trail from pine trees to open dunes

pearly everlasting flowers in golden sunlight

golden glow through the green dense woods

three orangey brown mushrooms in the moss

walking through the woods, listening to the ocean in the near distance 😍😍

a tunnel through trees

a smattering of small mushrooms

BIG MUSHROOMS, THICK STEMS

a yellow speckly mushroom

mushrooms lined the entire hike in the woods, like just a nonstop river of mushrooms it was incredible

pale sand dunes, a strip of forest, and then the ocean

a sandy beach totally empty of people

a beach just before low tide, blue above, blue below

took a mile hike through the dunes and the woods to this beach where we were literally the only people

this live did irreparable things to me

30. for several reasons i’m really proud of this one! bsky.app/profile/them...

29. it’s so easy for me to come up with a title half the time, and the other half of the time it takes a long frustrating time, and i never know how it’s gonna go!!!

28. my least favorite part is when the motivation and desire to keep writing something is not enough to overcome the executive function breakdown. desperately wanna write, simply can’t write, fall into despair, etc etc adhd

27. my favorite part of the writing process is when i get a new idea and i can literally feel it on my skin you know!! my other favorite part is when i’m done writing and get a nice comment if we’re being honest

26. i can’t write if anyone can even possibly see my screen, tbh i’d rather no one can see my face when im writing lmao not even the person i married 🙃 im working on it

25. plants in the wild! plants in the garden! i play a lot of games that are chill, crochet, meandering the woods, witchcrafty stuff, tai chi, tarot, my cats… i’m just an early 90s new age (gender-indifferent, bi) lesbian

24. going outside helps, like just looking at things and existing, also talking to anne makes ideas and scenes fly out of my head like silly string

23. hm i’d say my writing is soft, horny, and …. idk …. vivid? emotionally vivid?? idk??

22. i always worry about what everyone is gonna think and genuinely i have no idea what it is in me, a very anxious person, that allows me to post stuff anyway without much struggle?? tbh i think i believe in the subjectivity of art so much that im okay with it

she eventually was able to give him his insulin and his inhaler but everyone please send julian calming energy so he doesn’t stress himself into more tummy troubles 🙃🙃🙃 look at him he’s just a little dummy

our friend pet sitting texted when we were almost to the campground that julian was refusing to let her give him his insulin shot and was running away and hissing 🥲 i’ve heard him hiss once ever, julian is too much of a clueless sweetie himbo to do anything but flop over and look sad usually

lol right?? 💀💀 like it’s supposed to be relaxing but it’s been only worries and chores so far 🙃 it’s gorgeous here though so it should be nice!

he seems to be doing better so hopefully he doesn’t stress himself into another episode because someone new is in the house trying to feed and medicate him 😩

a shadow of a person on the ground looking like some kind of cryptid

we’re at a campground so there’s no lights of any kind, this is my shadow IN THE MOONLIGHT!! she is beamingggg 🌝🌝🌝

me and shae are going on a mini vacay trip and having someone come house/petsit and it’s so fucking stressful cleaning god damn everything and setting everything up and julian is like this seems like the perfect time for me to have mysterious tummy troubles and like god damn is it even worth it

oh my god i love her 🥹🥹🥹🥹

lmao you do have anne privileges 🥰🥰
1. I WISH WE COULD DO THIS IT WOULD BE WAY EASIER THAN WRITING
2. there certainly is and at the moment it's vampires
3. this isn't edited at all yet and idk if i'm particularly proud of it but i made myself emotional writing it lol

aah i'm jealous, i can never write on any public transportation which is very frustrating ToT)

21. my last fic was yesterday please go read my yunwoosan 🩷🩷