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YouTube video by TeddyLoid - Topic Black Appolo Will Soon Take Off

Ganymede is making me think that S2 Apollo's livery should be black and gold. Ilya's theme song for that season also mentions black. Clearly I am getting a message to revive Lotus 2012.

yea I'll have to do a little work to let go of this bitterness and start fresh. I probably should eventually. not right now though 😈

I won't lie, it will be a bad taste if only now I get accepted to things.

you know, every zine, every juried convention, every collab - I was never picked to get in. until I eventually stopped trying to get into anything like that and decided to focus on what I could achieve alone. in the end it worked, despite hearing I "did it wrong." who knows? I only did what I could.

and thank god trent remixed this song to give me a new core memory to overwrite the old one

repeat-playing club hit beats remixx Closer to take the edge off

thank god I made myself do a new promo-type artwork last year. less embarrassing for sure

>notices mainstream news article about me
ah, my days as I am are numbered. pack it up!

KOHH's UNTITLED album cover. A black and white portrait of himself, the face erased in a blur. Across the top is the text: "-Why didn't you tell anyone?" "-No one asked."

when this album cover dropped with no hype and warning around the release, I knew exactly

YouTube video by KOHH - Topic They Call Me Super Star

feeling nostalgic for when KOHH retired with this. I'm glad he found his way back after UNTITLED

efaf's gym tips on how to get through your routine faster, or alternatively how to activate your latent desire to bully

forgot my headphones going to the gym and my punishment is getting to listen to the guy starring in a porno on the rowing bench

I did a thing for Whitewater where I drew the closet for each of the main characters for self-reference, and I feel like I need to do that for Downforce at this point. Maybe also all the team engineers too.

senna and prost discuss something in the garage while senna demonstrates what me means with his hands (my favorite genre of F1 photo). however, prost has completely decked me with whatever cut of shirt he decided to wear today as an added bonus (maybe I'll give it to thierry)

struck senseless by this one really

paid $18 for khao soi gai and it wasn't even good smh

genius of an album, at the end of the day the singular one I'd take with me to the desert island out of all their albums, as tight as the race is

YouTube video by 65daysofstatic - Topic Weak4

I hadn't listened to We Were Exploding Anyway on my new sound setup yet SOMEhow, and now that I have, I'm obsessed with the layering I can so easily discern in Weak4 that I couldn't before

I have one month left to lock in and draw Ollie or I'm going to die

I have never felt more powerful than using all the breadth of my willpower into setting this plan into motion and watching every part fall into place week after week. It took 8 months for the bulk of it and the final stage is yet to complete (the banks say 2026), but 2025 has indeed been my year.

I was being coy here. While I was still manifesting Downforce at this point in time, I posted this knowing it would be my year regardless because of the Grand Design to Rebuild the Self I was placing into motion, that I decided on the last two weeks of December. Essentially, Trust El Plan.

sometimes I wonder if the cluster headaches recalibrated my pain sensors because I can tank so many other things with a shrug that people call debilitating

pixel versions of Thierry and Ilya, and they were only four apples tall (12px)

when you have brainrot but don't have time to draw the boys

things clicking in my brain between etching and/or mezzotint and that fantasy comic concept I had

every single time I start nearing the end of a side comic I turn into the GTO gif of the vice principal as I realize I have to draw another cover. are you tired of hearing about it yet

worth staying up for D1GP to see the very first Nakamura family drift battle. insane weekend

no don't tell me they deleted the FujiTV F1 Brazil OP off youtube. I need it. I need the opening where they have a ridiculous quote about god deciding brazil was the final battlefield or whatever. I must scour the internet for another copy and then save it for posterity

I saw Tron Ares. Surprised at how much I liked it! Horrific really; the kind of story made for me. I don't mind how straightforward it was, and when it stopped to put on a big light show, because it did it well. Again, I was happy to have no romance at the end. It's more healthy that way.

I'm slowly coming back to the world. I've been watching a bunch of movies with my friends and on my own. Small, quick bits of media (relative to so many other options) to reconnect with everything outside my walls without burying myself under too much.

anyway in the case of Downforce, you'll eventually think of the endless multitudes of fucked up dynamics possible when you pay someone to control your life down to what you eat every day (driver and trainer)

a small excerpt of Raphael's "School of Athens" painting, where Plato and Aristotle are the focus in deep debate

love to have a private discord to feel like this in