crushing realization that no matter how hard i try it will never be enough and no one will truly want me around. want to punch punch punch
it’s time for the adderall snow strippers math combo
IM SO HUNGOVERRRRRRRRRR
boot cut jeans til i CROAK
why have i literally been getting prophetic dreams
forcing myself to eat more so i can actually pay attention during class… fasting is OUT! high res + 10k steps a day is IN! … i guess
thank u hottie !!!
man i do not got that dawg in me today
a whole pint of halo top for dinner i can’t tell if that’s big back behavior or skinny behavior
the more weight i lose the more my giant nose hump becomes visible AAHSHAJAHBWJWHWHAHHAJQBQJWGHAHQBQ
i want a nose job so bad
i need someone to take my spine out, crack it, put it in the freezer, then put it back in me
just ate a donut. WITH choco icing.
just realized with the amount of money i’ve spent on therapy and ed treatment i could’ve just gotten rhinoplasty and liposuction and it would have fixed me instantly
the 60 mg vyvsanse in my system fighting off the 10 mg melatonin fighting off the 12 oz redbull fighting off the indica preroll
❤️🩹
ur so sweet thank u!! <3
following my “friends” around like a puppy,, getting talked over in every conversation,, no one asks me anything,, they all go to parties without me,, walking behind them,, asking “who’s that” “wait what” “what’s funny”,, and they made a gc without me,, they made a gc,,,, without me,,
realized all of the people i consider my closest friends consider me acquaintances and they have friends of their own. most of them don’t even know my last name or hang out with me unless i reach out first but even then it’s awkward. how do you even meet ppl to be genuinely close with??
wish i could just walk up to people and ask them”would you like to be friends?” like i did when i was a kid lol… i don’t get all of the formalities of adulthood socialization, i feel like im missing something??? 😭
everyone fucking hates me and for good fucking reason i’m pathetic
i am genuinely the ugliest most pathetic person to ever walk this earth. i don’t even starve anymore to lose weight, i’ve lost enough weight i just starve cuz i don’t fucking deserve food
everyone is staring at me
i am so fuckonng disgusting and ugly i can’t even look at myself anymore everyone i know is so gorgeous and pretty and they have so many friends and people just think i’m weird and i have no social skills and i am a waste of fucking space oh my god oh my god
i’m good i just got out of class :p how are you doing ?
gonna weigh myself this sunday 😋
watched anok yai’s allure interview and i think for the next couple days i’m gonna try to recreate her rider diet for fun… “fresh fruit, sour candy, ginger shots, cranberry juice, redbull, san sanpelligrino sparkling water, mint tea with ginger slices and lemon slices and honey, and tea candles.”
