Lady J 🐰

(( I did in fact have that specific kind of pink ))

I finally did it ( went through 200 bottles of nail polish going ‘I want pink but I need a specific kind of pink with a specific kind of purple and I don’t think I have that pink !!!! )

Uninstall Grammarly NOW. They've partnered with an AI company and actively scrape your writing to train its models.

i love writing. i hope i can do it forever.

just taking little baby steps until i can finally finish up what i promised people, and then i can figure out where i want to go after

it's taking me at this rate 2 years?? to finish my queue?? but 2 years is better then nothing! every 3 months is better than nothing at all

finally in a headspace again where looking at stripe and sending out invoices for comms doesnt make me grind my teeth anymore tbh

i definitely haven't been able to write as much as i used to, but the days i can write feel easier and my hands are getting better and i feel like my words are stronger

the thing lurking beneath the surface isn’t actually too far after all.

cried so much this weekend, trying to understand if I was actually a person who deserved half the things I try to tell and give myself when I feel like a cracked failure 18 hours a day

managed to get back to being gentle with myself again by the end, but. it’s been a very sobering reminder.

Just found out we have to reschedule multiple bookings until the end of January though so 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 I’m really gonna need to work extra hard to carve out time for myself these coming months. April can’t come soon enough.

Not even a copium I’m very proud of myself for at least figuring out how to separate my self worth from my job, this is not my life and I refuse to make it my life 🙂‍↔️

Today was such a good day 😃 ( I am off in 45 minutes and off on Monday yipee )

Came in to 3 people calling out sick today lol lmao even

What did I say !!

Asking myself if this counts as positive reinforcement today lmao

When the powers that be only care about the people making money and not the people that try to retain it, you guys are so funny, I hope this blows up in your face and shows upper management how little support you actually give to the people who actually need it ✨✨

‘What about the slow season’ shut up, this is why this department is always missing people and why we’re always operating with a broken leg, because we get sick and ill working your overtime !!!

Money is good but you know what else is good? Hiring enough people to fulfill the job requirements 🙂 and not having to expect your 8 people to handle 160 emergency bookings all leaving in the next two weeks

I think sometimes about being asked to come in early for work & also think about how no one else stays the late shift when there’s only two of us left & I think about how I have an enforced 30 min overtime everyday & wonder if it’s worth it to burn myself out on a Friday night for an extra twenty

Treating my thumbs like the delicate appendages they are, please don’t fail me again I am being very careful !!!

It’s really not just me being tired, it was a lot of pain and that too 😭😭😭😭 but I’m doing better… I will be normal again soon… !

Crying tbh I don’t know why I’m the kind of person that holds it back until I can say it’s better and lightly brush it off but I’m really glad I’m finally feeling like I’m seeing something genuinely improve… I was really scared my hand wouldn’t heal, I’m so glad it’s getting better

It’s crazy how I’ve never told anyone the biggest thing that’s been ailing me for months now because all I could think about was how I wasn’t doing enough and it was an excuse and eventually I’d be better and I could do it then and here I am months later just now able to admit it’s getting better

My god when I admit I could not type and everything was a typo and I had to wear a brace on my stupid thumb because everytime I bent a single finger it was game over for days !!! This is why writing was so hard and took me so long lmao besides the grief, I could only type words every few paragraphs

Gently realizing why I stopped talking to people after typing on discord for a bit with Liddy tonight lol

I’m eepy

yeees!!! 🙌🏻 manifesting getting back into doing them more often 🥹🤞🏻 it does take so much time but the satisfaction afterwards is so worth it !!

big problem with being me is wanting to play new pokémon but also wanting to write and finish fics, there is not enough time in My Entire Life

Thank you !!!!!! Its my favorite region, I’m excited to explore it like this too !!!!

Turning this on and being surprised by how bright and clear it is…. I’ve been so used to getting used second hand tech for years, getting new stuff feels surreal actually

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