Johvan

Costume #2 today!

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Am I the only one who will look at the background of a nude? A guy could be showing me the biggest hog ever but I'll be zooming into the background like "that dirty, cracked door frame looks like you live in an abandoned house."

SIR

Sir, this is a Wendy's

Finalizing my book today and freaking out about every little detail. How much would you pay for a self-published book, 60k words but has some art inside?

a woman in a white coat is holding a flashlight in her hand in the dark . ALT: a woman in a white coat is holding a flashlight in her hand in the dark .

Oh fr? Let me know if they pop up again

We'll get through this Monday together ❤️

Wdym my feed is EMPTY?? None of y'all are posting ANYTHING?? 😭

a woman is sitting in the back seat of a car with her eyes closed . ALT: a woman is sitting in the back seat of a car with her eyes closed .

Finally got around to watching Train to Busan and

I haven't been this fresh in awhile

Releasing almost a year's worth of anxiety and negative emotions the day before world mental health day?? I kind of ate that up and I didn't even know it

I believe in you

Also anyone waiting for a follow up, I've said all I need to say, and I can't wait to stop having panic attacks when I see prominent members of other communities who don't even follow me in my stream wondering if they're spying and reporting back. All I've wanted was to forget the whole nightmare.

Words can not describe how much lighter I feel. Thank you everyone who checked in on me

Thank you so much, I appreciate you even when being a chaos gremlin ❤️❤️❤️

Unfortunately Twitch is really connected and after years communities do start to blend, and things get noticed. I tried my best to stay silent even when asked about it, and I appreciate you trying to keep that distance ❤️

I understand this might look ugly and people, close to the situation or not, might unfollow. I don't care. I'm sick of feeling like I'm in a prison where they get to do whatever they want while if I were to say or do anything in return would make me even more the bad guy.

I've spent the past couple months absolutely terrified of hanging around my friends or making new ones because my words and actions might get misinterpreted. I'm sick of it, and I deserve to tell my side of the story that's getting thrown out there anyway.

I'm so glad I lived long enough to see pigeons get their job back except now they're delivering for a dispensary

Thank you 🥰

That's part of me being cute, duh

A selfie so the gays remember I'm cute

I asked a guy on Grindr to tell me about himself and he sent a minute long voice note 😭 (I'm kind of into that energy tho)