Suren 🌿 Theo

I'm a non practicing libertine with social anxiety and trauma

Being a poly whore (positive) at heart and severely sexually traumatized is so unfunny it's almost comical. Fuck my life

Oh same there. Never to complete strangers.

Sadu X Cirina

We deserve to just go to a pharmacy and pick it up over the counter.

Fuck medicalization

I think sex is wonderful and I enjoy it but I don't feel attracted to people's bodies! I can appreciate them aesthetically but that's about it. I enjoy being intimate with people I like for who they are (romantically or not)

Realistically I'm somewhere on the ace spectrum. I want intimacy but I have never really experienced physical attraction. It's hard to explain and might not make sense to some but it makes sense to me.

PSA, because some how folk still don't understand:

Asexual ≠ doesn't want sex.
Asexual in fact = experiences little/no sexual ATTRACTION

You can be ace and desire relationships. You can be ace and desire intimacy. You can also be ace and desire neither

That is all

I think I would have preferred not knowing

I look okay and think I'm still fairly functional. But inside I'm feeling something I can't describe.

CW csa

I found out I was sexually abused by a group of people when I was around 6 years old. I had no memory of it until a few days ago and I'm dealing with some pretty bad flashbacks. So bad they almost feel real. I asked my therapist to see me earlier than scheduled, and spoke about it today.

You're allowed to enjoy your ships on your own. You don't need to join that discord. You don't have to follow that big name artist/writer/meme maker. You don't have to accept the popular fanon headcanon.

You can just enjoy them how *you* want to on *your* terms. You don't need anyone's permission.

In a different life, maybe. It would have been nice.

Had a heart to heart with my partner because I have feelings for someone and I'm just glad I can talk to him because I feel pretty upset over it. This person is married, and as far as I know, not poly, so I just think I'll never tell her. Hopefully it'll just pass.

Every single person trying to stop pornography from existing is either moronically delusional, deeply unwell, or hatefully nefarious; and every single person in the first two categories inevitably serves the ends of the third.

the website is exactly what it says on the tin

casually scrolling on manydicks because I forgot how to draw peen. if I told my younger self this would be part of my job now, I wouldn't believe it

yeah I just watched it and tbh he did a great job explaining things

I'm surprised he managed to make a 40+ minute video on that lol. It's so clear that it's bullshit.

I try not to blame myself for all that, because I was 18, came from being locked in a home where I was demonized, abused and exorcised, and nobody helped me. I didn't know better

not quite, I don't know much about scientology tbh

he was a university professor and I trusted him. he was the first person that listened to me and tried to "explain" my experiences... and now there's videos of me out there I can't take down. even a movie. I'm grateful I'm changing name and gender tbh for this reason as well

I knew him personally and.. it was such a dark time in my life. man mistook my (then undiagnosed) DID for his theory that aliens lived inside our heads. told me "you hate being a woman because a male alien lives in your brain". I don't think about that often but I think it traumatized me

saw videos circulating of some "researchers" finding stuff under the pyramids (probably jumping to a lot of unfounded conclusions tbh) and they named them and I was like... oh I know who that is. I didn't know the man was still alive and still on his alien "research" bullshit.

I'm not suicidal. Just grateful I'm not immortal

therapy can't save me and I am trying to come to terms with it. I just think that when I die I'll give thanks, if I am lucky enough to be aware it's happening. I felt this way since I can remember, and it hasn't changed so far. even if I consider myself mostly happy and safe now.

sometimes I think if there's a god, a creator, they must have made us aware of our mortality so that we could endure life with the comforting thought that the horrors won't last forever.
I'm okay now, safe, living a better life. But the damage done is too much and I have to live with it

oh yeah it's all the time.