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Being in love hits so hard, even Mariah Carey's lyrics start making sense. Like yeah, I'd be happy if all I had for Christmas was you.

Regardless of what I said, this song made me look up some of Deco's old music and got me giving him a few more plays which he can monetize, so in the end I guess he still got me.

Not that I wanted to antagonize him or anything, though.

YouTube video by DECO*27 DECO*27 - カイコ feat. 初音ミク

Right. There's no algorithm here. I can just post links.

Here it is. It's very whatever. Not every song can be Monitoring, I guess.

I guess it's ok to have your song carried by its lyrics, and I guess they just don't resonate with me at all (in fact I think they're cringe as fuck, as most Deco stuff is), but damn, I still look back at his older work and wonder what happened to that. His rock was immaculate. He was great.

Deco's new song sounds like Maretu trying (and failing) to imitate Kikuo. The whole yandere Miku trope is boring and the reason Kikuo pulls it off so neatly is because he's a genius composer, not because of Miku herself. Deco is a great musician, but he's kinda stuck on his own style.

Oh, my boss is VERY misogynistic. I knew he was to some extent, but recently he speaks ill of every woman we even vaguely mention in any discussion.

Funnily enough, he's a submissive puppy whenever his wife is around. I wonder if there's correlation there.

This time he didn't answer my question, for those keeping track.

Me: "hey boss, is this ad targeting clients or possible suppliers?"
My boss, half an hour into his answer: "... because we need to instill fear in them, but also gain their trust, so we can command them and..."

Man, people are still making passive-aggressive comments on the fact that I didn't want to celebrate my birthday. Seems like I seriously offended them. I'm very surprised by how much I've learned about them (and about social interaction as a whole) from this fiasco.

Well damn, I went and escalated it just like that. We in a relationship now, fellas!

Oh god the horny thoughts are starting to settle I really want to escalate this relationship ASAP.

Panel 1: Shen is talking to Hatsune Miku in her standard grey, teal, and black outfit. They look happily at each other. Shen has his hands in the front pouch of his sweatshirt. Shen: "are you the REAL MIKU??" Miku: "Yeah!" Shen: "Prove it." Panel 2: Miku begins singing Anamanaguchi's "Miku", going "miku miku oo-ee-oo" and spinning her classic leek in her left hand. Shen looks on contently. Panel 3: Shen is talking to Kasane Teto, who is wearing a mustard-yellow t-shirt with a baguette graphic and baguette style lines on the shoulders, and sweatpants. They look happily at each other. Shen: "Are you the REAL TETO??" Teto: "Yeah!" Shen: "Prove it." Panel 4: Teto keels over a bit, shaking and crying hard, screaming "AAAAAAAAAAAAAA". Shen looks on contently.

Btw, Sayonara Rolling Star is absolutely not about a widow. It's just a break-up. But it does talk about letting go of a loved one, and that part hits like a truck.

Maybe it's ok if Santiago dies. He kinda sucks; he's mostly a self-insert Gary Stu that barely helps the plot move at all. Even Mauricio has far better development than him. But that'd mean the Santiago-Hinata couple would die too, and that's my favorite character in this story. They are meaningful.

I entertained the idea of making this entire arc a bad dream, or a mental exercise by Hinata to come up with new music. It'd devalue it a little, but it'd allow me to make it canonical. Pretending it didn't ever exist would render it irrelevant altogether, and that's far worse, in my opinion.

She still loves him. It still pains her. She's still broken beyond mending. But that doesn't mean trying is meaningless, and if she found the strength to even try and move on with her life, then she has already made a ton of progress. Who knows; maybe she can still find happiness once again.

I would've never guessed that, of all things, a Katamari Damacy song would bring me the (at least chronologically) last chapter in Hinata's widow arc. "Sayonara Rolling Star" is exactly what I'd imagine her singing when finally letting go and moving on with her life. Happy, funky, yet melancholic.

That peaked a few months ago, and as such, my last text from that time was probably the darkest one. It gives me chills whenever I reread it. Since then, I've been slowly improving and making headway towards my happiness. New music has come to me as well, so Moon Square stays relevant in my mind.

A few years ago, when I came up with this whole "The death of Santiago" arc, I had sad and intense music aplenty to write intense, visceral stuff coming from Hinata. Accordingly, I was spending more and more time down in the gutter. She became more of a self-insert than my actual self-insert.

Hinata draws heavy inspiration from Wowaka, for example, and Emma's entire past was inspired by the vibe of Kinoko Teikoku's album Eureka. She herself is mostly based on their music. If anything, Santiago and Mauricio are on the blander side (and even they are somewhat based on Daft Punk).

Back when I started writing Moon Square, it was out of love for the music I listen to. New chapters would come to me as new songs would find their way to me. I rarely planned anything other than character backgrounds, and even those are heavily influenced by the songs I associate with each one.

Date went awesome

Me: *tch tch*

The cat I'm trying to Pavlov into associating that sound with food: FOOD?? FOOD. WHERE FOOD. I WANT FOOD. SHALL I DANCE FOR FOOD? I SHALL DANCE FOR FOOD, PLS FOOD NOW

Me: lmao get Pavlov'd you idiot

Ya boy has a 2nd date + flirted a little and got good results.

All of y'all are invited to the wedding.

Let's have sex on the cuck chair and let the bed watch

They're talking about italian brainrot, I'm actually in fight or flight mode right now.

Currently seething and frothing at the mouth because I'm forced to have lunch with my boss and his VERY loud family for my birthday (which was a week ago and I very clearly said I'd NOT be celebrating).

MY GOAT SCOGERT

I really love it when FGO fanart has Mashu with big boobs but they're not sexualized. They're there, and they're big. Their roundness goes well with Mashu, since she herself is very round (and therefore cute).

Is it weird that I feel like that? I don't think so. Is it weird to think about it? Probs

Obviously I don't do it immediately, though. I add the bricks at the end of the month after I buy my monthly bricks, like normal people do.