This marks the end of an era of my life. Time to shed my skin once again like the serpent rectrix I am. Hate to say goodbye, but I’ve sacrificed reaching my full potential for way too long.
It’s time to actually show myself the love I deserve :)
Be patient with yourself lue, every change takes some time
I refuse!
من تو وضع منتال الانم اصلا نمیتونم با آدمایی که مودیان و مشکلاتشونو رو سرم خالی میکنن و میرن معاشرت کنم. جوری drainام میکنه که از زندگی کردن سیر میشم.
امیدوارم من همچین آدمی برای کسی نبوده باشم مخصوصا این مدت، و این که ونت کردن تو اینجا جلوی این اتفاق رو گرفته باشه.😑
Lmao 9karam it means a lot <3
Thanks for your words <3 I’m trying to remember it, but sometimes az dastam dar mire
حسهایی که ۶ سال پیش شخصیتم رو شکستن دوباره زنده شدن، اما ایندفعه ظرفیت من فرق کرده.
حس ناکافی بودن، حس اشتباه بودن، و پذیرش دوبارهی این واقعیت که وقتی یه چیزی نخواد بشه، خودمو پاره بکنم هم نمیشه.
It’s not my first time experiencing betrayal. Maybe I’m just not enough and that’s okay.
Damn son where’d you find these emotionally unavailable people
Not a shadowy figure anymore.
جدیدا فهمیدم که از آدمای زیادی منطقی بدم میاد
I’m not mourning the loss of you as I haven’t lost you, I’m mourning the death of all the dreams and desires I had with you, and I think that’s worse.
خوبی این سفرا اینه که انگیزه میده بهم تا کون خودمو پاره کنم و به فکر راههای بهتر برای پول درآوردن باشم تا بتونم خودمو از اون جهنمدره بکشونم بیرون.
هر طرف یه جهنم متفاوته، از هرکدوم که فکر میکنم خلاص شدم میفهمم که پریدم تو اون یکی
I’m losing my shit the bare minimum is either inaccessible or fucking expensive in that shithole of a country like the scope of it actually blows my mind
My huge issue is that I prefer to do something with someone else rather than doing it all by myself which sucks because 90% of the time there is no someone else and I end up not doing the thing at all
I think I just unlocked a whole new level of drunk activities like tf is drunk cleaning 💀
This turned out to be a hormonal imbalance🤡
Most of my problems go away the moment I step out of this god forbidden country
It sucks really
I feel like I’m being half-assed like this feeling genuinely haunts me
I figured things are not going so good when I realized even the thought of physical touch is repelling me
Right when I’m about to go on a solo trip to another country in a few days with all of my friends having cancelled the trip, I get this on my IG feed 🥲 https://www.instagram.com/reel/CtszKCdOENY/?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==
I guess I can be more personal here as it’s quite hard to get in to the platform and the users get filtered (mostly arzeshis)^.^
