Awesome Epicary

Feeling like I’m missing out cause I will never fully understand why conventionally appealing people are appealing

Like dude I actually feel like a person again. Like I have some say in who I am. I'm not putting up with being in a box anymore, in many more senses than just being a woman

I've now been trans for a bit. I really love myself. I want nothing but the best for myself! Who knew that saying i was a woman would feel so nice. I get how it feels now to love myself as a woman with a penis and a deep voice. Like heyyyyyyy boys i saw you checkin out my gock

tired in a good way

It doesn’t matter how hard I try I can’t get myself to be trans RIGHT NOW and i am a disappointment to myself and by extension EVERYONE WATCHING ME AAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Sorry you all who thought i was okay who have to see me suffer my own head

AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! HhhahaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I’m going insane again, why is it such a battle to keep my sanity

YouTube video by WoodenToaster WoodenToaster - Beyond Her Garden

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I’m getting back up the hard way, the right way

I’m done trying to live up to a body I will never have, a personality I don’t want. I want to be my unrefined self and have others figure out how to be my sugar and salt

Im a shambling crying weeping mess because I rediscovered how it feels to love myself

Also I didn’t know I could feel this way anymore and it’s scary and wonderful And iwanted to write it down so i could remember how unwell i am

For context I have been incredibly anxious the past few days and I am running on much less than normal sleep

I just try to please everyone and i dont get to do the things i want to do that no one wants to hear about, I learned my lesson then immediately forgot

It’s like I realize this feeling that’s been eating away at me for so long that it’s left a gaping hole and I just accepted it

No im not insane for wanting to cry after my emotional dam burst

I’m going insane again, I thought I could beat it this time but I’m still too weak

I havent been gay in so long
I have just been present with other men
I have serious gender envy and I pad it with how I’ll never be a real woman
I am alive but I’m not getting myself fucked up and I just want to do something to make life interesting and have someone hate me so I can finally hate mys

“Look!
It’s my sculpture!”
*ahead lies a pile of rocks*
“Aren’t you so proud of me?”

I’ve been present in this world but I have felt no pain and no grief and I just haven’t lived at all and I miss when I was never accepted as a person cause I could never be comfortable as the failure I am

Something said to me tonight just feels like a hot coal put into my stomach and it makes me feel alive and split apart and back to where I was and yet still here and now

I’m running from my past, burning

I used to not know what a twink body type was and I looked it up and it just looks like those annoying people who would always run faster than me in gym class and they’d play valorant

Go!! Yes yes yes yes!! hahA!!! *begin breakcore sequence*

hhahahaha HAAHAHAahaha AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Someday, I’ll find a way
Under the sun of a brighter day
To be together, across the fallen plain

I am your guardian...
Take my hand, we'll cross the land; through lightning, mountains, rocks, and sand;
You know there's no place I can't go, when I'm with you;
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I miss the guy who made me feel this way. That guy is Turtle from wings of fire. I hope to see him at MFF.

You gotta be silly, dude. At least a little bit. You gotta have a spring in your step and a smile in your heart or else none of this matters

sup fuckers guess who got back into their account