Mona 🔏

I don’t deserve dinner tonight.

KILL ME TUCKING KILL ME STRANGLE ME PUT YIUR HANDS ON MY THROAT AND SQUEESE LET ME FUCKINT DIE ALREADY END THIS HUMILIATION OF MY EXISTENCE LET ME DIE LET ME RUCKING DIE LET IT FUCKING END KILL MEE

I need to disappear
I need to stop disappointing people
I need to stop tricking everyone into thinking they like me. They like an idea. A persona. A false mask sculpted to attract and trick. I’m a liar. A scum bag. A monster.

I feel isolated and empty. Alone.

I’m a ghost walking a path that won’t ever reach anywhere.

Alone. Surrounded by flowers that look away from me.

It’s suffocating but if I speak it’ll kill the flowers.

Why does it burn

I make myself sick. The tension is building in my head I wanan throw up

I didn’t draw any blood but I started cutting my shoulder tonight

My boyfriend is so mean to me :<

I should kill my self

It’s pass midnight and the horrors are keeping me awake

I go to work in 6 hours

Sigh

Anytime I fail to say a word or sentence like a normal person, a part of me dies. It just reminds how fucking terrible I am at completing the most simplest of task like the unloveable failure I am.

There’s nothing more embarrassing than having someone worry about you. Don’t think about me, don’t perceive me. Leave me be….

I failed. I failed and holy fuck it hurts.

I upsetted my boyfriend I wan tot die

I could fucking kill muzelf I don’t care anymore man

I feel miserable

I feel like my sin is gluttony

I just want and want but nothing will satisfy me

It’s a conflicting existence, I feel like a beast

There will be occasional a super serious scene or interesting idea and IMMEDIATELY gets sidelined by awful dialogue. Also the cover is oddly erotic to me. Maybe I do have a cannibalism kink idc

6/10

I would rather work the office 5 days in a row than be the partner of someone incompetent- YOUVE SUPPOSEDLY DONE THIS MORE THAN ME. HOW AM I DONE AT 7:30 BUT BY 7:10 YOURE STILL DOING THE OPENING

I’m really happy that one thing is finally over now

I’ve been talking about some of it to a close friend and it’s been a bit relieving.

I understand I’m no way a victim or anything but it feels good to let it go

I miss my
Boyfriend

Forced to order out because I ran out of food

Fuckkkkkk

I’m quite fond of how you draw her when you do, I wanna look like her!

Thanks eBay

I don’t enjoy not understanding how to be human. I have emotions that aren’t acceptable but I’m not sure why it’s not.

I don’t want to have emotions anymore, I want to simply stop being here as myself

I always think it’s weird how whenever a transwoman does something problematic or bad people immediately start misgendering her? Which is weird because women are naturally evil so it’s actually gender affirming

Pretty upset that I might be getting sick, which means I might have to miss the trip back home and therefore the funeral :<

Digital illustration of Link from the legend of zelda series, seen thigh-up and viewed from a low angle. His hair is tied up in a ponytail and he wears fingerless gloves + white stockings + a black collar with a triforce symbol. He looks down wide-eyed in dismay; his genitals are missing, only a smooth mound. The background is a browser window frame, and there's a red error message stating: "Link Blocked" "We believe the link you are trying to ogle shouldn't have genitals. For our mutual amusement, we have removed them."

some backlog silliness for this saturday's elf stuff -
"Hylian Infosec"

Fuck. 10/10