muffins | i stay silly to combat depresso

im well aware that's not where most ppl want to go tho. they want to feel proud of themselves. anything to not feel insignificant, and this is why we always destroy e/o

we're supposed to be cooperative equals and yet we destroy that harmony and for what? to satisfy the ego? frankly i think humanity would be in a better place if we accept that we are worthless but we strive to be better to e/o. we are not greatness. glory is not our destiny.

idk i have always been someone who doesn't like to hit back. does that make me an easy prey? i guess. i don't see the need to provoke someone as a performance of power. i just think it's beneath them to resort to petty stuff like that. we are a human race we're supposed to above predatory dynamic

venting again bc i don't feel like journaling today lol. it's about the files and how uh. basically a lot of ppl in my life want me to be in that proximity and i just think. if being cruel but powerful is what they want then they never would've liked me in the first place

AI has actively made life worse for literally everyone

- tech is now more expensive
- you cannot trust most media of reality anymore
- programs barely function
- energy prices
- literal psychosis
- your voice can be literally stolen for evil
- more spyware

but hey, you can avoid paying an artist.

按F拯救🍙

#Neuvithesley
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鸡公煲~鸡公煲~经过我的胃~~♪

well what does it matter anyway. my disappointment has always been the only scream ppl cared to listen to. i doubt that will ever change

im tired of feeling im the only one on my side. im tired of scripting ppl into following my lead so i can have the type of interaction i want. im tired of ppl not reading between the lines and acting on my best interest. im tired of ppl ignoring my feelings + dignity + desires

and it sucks bc i do want to feel accomplished i do want to be proud of myself but everywhere i turn it feels like ppl are celebrating that the version of me who wasn't as skilledor knowledgeable is gone and no one has to take care of her or show her guidance

i do want to evolve tbh. the problem is that there's a major difference between me taking on challenges and risk that adds value to my life vs being forced to endure and overcome bc someone else wants me to be independent already w/o taking consideration of what i want

havent vented in a while im gonna do that now just to be annoying /j

everyday i have to tell myself there's a huge difference between ppl wanting to have their moment and i just happen to be there w/ them vs ppl wanting to have a moment together w/ me and while i still have to do it often it still works wonders tbh

born to pillow princess forced to soft dom on myself bc no one is good enough to be my master yet

first claude and now leona i think i have a type

i heard leona's en voice and completely forgot i was a lesbian

silent hill f hits way too close to home

i probably shouldn't be laughing but it's truly hilarious that the one thing our society fears is if someone w/ a female body chooses not to give birth for w/e reason and doesn't want to spend frivolous amount of money im literally just existing and they call me a parasite

like if anyone comes to me w/ their companionship that they could've given me back when i needed it most i would be greatly offended

i think there's smth to be said about. how im the happiest ive ever been when i don't need anyone in my life anymore. but it's also catastrophic in the sense that. i don't feel that i want anyone either?

man sometimes you meet ppl and there's like. that stench of them having a superiority complex and im like yea i don't wanna be around that. the only valid thing to be looked down on is ppl being mean and/or actively harming ppl and im not joking

gAI art is bad because it's stealing labor.

stealing labor from art is easy because no one sees art as labor, they see it as talent.

they see it as talent because it's easier to believe they have a right to hate you because they can't stand they gave up and you didn't.

fuck them, pay labor.

tl:dr firefox users:

type/paste about:config into the address bar, hit yes if it gives prompt

paste and to false:

browser.ml.chat.enabled

extensions.ml.enabled

I personally disabled everything under "browser.ml.chat"

just in case anyone hasnt said this you can be against censorship while also having boundaries. all those people that make you uncomfortable, you are more than welcome to not want to be around them but you should still advocate for their right to create those things that make you uncomfortable.

thank you everyone who still makes art despite everything

i am no stranger to the internet being a cesspool but i think it's having an aneurysm today over the algorithm realizing that i barely respond to anything im sorry my limbic system is less reactionary than most

sometimes im reminded that my dad once tried to send me to a religious conservative boarding school and it comforts me to know i could've been so much worse

'it's not rly a slavery it's just an economic barrier that anyone can overcome' sure and they gotta climb through so many invisible wires just to get to where they're safe and you know v well it's designed like that to keep ppl underpaid and overworked just so you can keep the economy going so die

'we need women to breed or else we go extinct' you're saying ppl should be enslaved for the good of humanity shut up shut up shut up

fuuuuck there are way too many ppl in favor of human enslavement on the bird app and i am so not down for that like do you ppl have no soul good lord