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things have gotten fucking horrific, I may use this account soon to post art, but I think that's essentially all I'm gonna use it for.

I'm not going to try interacting with anyone on here, but how much content I'm even going to post is hard to determine as well

I dont wanna vent on Twitter too much but genuinely know I severely desperately want to kill myself and I'm getting to the point where the downside of the struggling and pain I'm gonna face when I try isnt a deterrent anymore

I just wanna fucking die so badly my life has never been worse I feel like everything I have ever loved is constantly being stripped away from me and I have no control over it at all literally all of my closest friends just pretty much gone and theres literally nothing I can say or do to fix it

I know I'm just screaming into the void but like I genuinely think my life is at the lowest point it possibly could be it feels so low I just want out I dont know any other escape I just seriously want to kill myself so badly I wanna do it in a quick and painless way I dont wanna struggle

im more than just bisexual though i always have been but it doesnt even matter anyway ive barely felt like ive had a community behind me even since coming out as bi, i shouldnt expect one as a trans person even if i were to ever come out more publicly about any of this, literally no one gives a fuck

but i despise having to associate with being a man and if im being completely honest all my life ive hated being a dude because ive always felt like people have had an initial level of -uncomfortability when interacting with me because im a dude and i definitely look way more masculine than feminine

i dont even know what the fuck i should do with my life anymore i hate being a dude because im such an ugly disgusting looking person but i genuinely hate my life and everything about it so even though i want to transition it doesnt even matter im probably gonna kill myself before i even can

i genuinely dont mind posting literally anything here anymore its overwhelmingly clear to me no one will even look at any of my posts anymore but that gives me all the power to admit that if you guys are looking right now fuck it im coming out, i wanna transition and i have for genuinely 2 years now

the only power i hold anymore is to just kill myself and get all of this over with like i seriously have nothing to look forward to anymore or anything to be happy about, i have very few friends who even want to help me i just seriously want to kill myself more than any of you could even imagine

like seriously none of you have reached out but i guess if i never really mattered all that much to you to begin with it shouldnt come as a surprise to me to begin with. despite trying absolutely everything in my power to make the correct decisions it never mattered, i have no power to do anything

like desperately desperately wanna kill myself legit noone cares about my emotions or mental health in even the slightest manner like what if i kill myself before this is all over and told noone, i guarantee not a single one of you would feel even the slightest bit of remorse even when you found out

nobody reaches out to me or anything like i pretty much all at once just lost all my closest friends in one single instance and i genuinely did nothing to deserve it but nobody wants to reach out and no matter what i say to anyone they dont fully believe me i just cant do shit i wanna kill myself

still wanna kill myself desperately is it worth it in any sense of the matter to continue living 😭what the fuck can i do i have no fucking agency over anything and im pretty much on my own i genuinely keep getting closer and closer to my breaking point of just killing myself like i have nothing left

My OC, Courtney, making heart hands with a glowing pansexual flag inside, while she is behind a glowing pansexual flag herself.

Celebrating PRIDE MONTH with an ongoing thread of my ocs and their sexualities/identities, starting WITH

Courtney - Pansexual!
#Art #OCs #MyOC #PrideMonth #Pansexual

nobody gives a fuck about me and I'm gonna die completely alone surrounded by nothing and everybody is gonna completely forget I ever existed

but I genuinely have and I am convinced always will hate myself, I have never had a good or even slightly positive self image, all my life I have inherently always viewed myself as less valuable than everyone around me and shit time and time again proves to be completely genuinely true

I feel like nobody could hear from me again and not a single person would think about me ever again but I honestly have always thought this, even the people I used to call my closest friends have all drifted from me, I legit have no one anymore I'm completely alone

nobody ever reaches out either nobody ever wants to legit spend time with me but especially now im worried if I reach out im gonna be looked at weirdly by whoever I'm reaching out to like I genuinely feel nothing but emptiness I wanna kill myself so fucking bad like I just want everything to be over

all of this posting is legit useless though I feel like time and time again I'm sorta always shown how pretty much no one would ever actually be there for me during the times I need it the most I just dont know why I'm always so alone things feel like they're genuinely never going to get better

if I'm being completely honest I think I wouldve been dead years ago but esp recently if I had any quick and painless way of ending it because pretty much one of the only reasons I havent yet is because of how scared I am of the pain or the thought of surviving and being left permanently disabled

I legit dont even add anything to any situation im in and I don't even feel really convinced that people ever cared about me i just wanna kill myself so fucking badly like i feel like im actively struggling to make it past every day and its been this way for months now, things have only gotten worse

how much I wanna kill myself like I seriously wanna kill myself I dont have any safe spaces and I just feel like I cant do shit anymore I never liked myself ever but now I dont have a community of people who care about me surrounding me anymore I legit have nothing I just wanna kill myself so bad

I genuinely dont care about holding back my feelings here anymore I used to feel embarrassed venting but feel like I barely have anyone anymore like I lost almost everyone in my life I cared about but I just came off of failing my classes horribly too like literally all i can think about anymore is

I legit feel like I'm suffocating constantly

it sucks even worse because the community I was apart of actively does not care about any of the harassment I am receiving but whatever I honestly just want to stop being alive

I genuinely dont even know what I couldve done to anyone to get them angry enough to want to harass me but idek what to do anymore I guess I just try not to post on twitter which sucks because I wanted to post pride month art there ☹

guys I've been pretty much non stop getting harassed for the past month now and I legit just dont know what to do anymore I feel like I can talk about it more freely away from twitter, but I just feel so fucked and completely motivation less to do anything and idk what to do anymore ☹

I am too poor to afford a nintendo switch 2 or even mario kart world alone I MAY need to end it all potentially

it causes me so much anxiety aswell I am so fuckin ass at disciplining myself and forcing myself to try doing important things why am I such an unironic genuinely professional grade thrower like everything im doing isnt helping anyone and is in fact hurting me like why do I keep doing this to myself

I feel so fucking stupid ugh I keep playing video games or watching YouTube intentionally to try to calm myself down as well as avoid what im trying to do as a sort of escape almost but I know that shit is actively hurting me and I need to somehow let myself sit down and focus on doing assignments