La Doleur Exquisabella

YouTube video by TheMomento777 David Wojnarowicz - "All I can feel is the pressure."

“…I wake up every morning in this killing machine called america…” #worldaidsday

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Same same

Hé thought it was funny, my grandmother was less amused, and his subséquent girlfriend (when widowed) thought it was rude.

I used to insist on calling my grandfather by his first name (Léon) as a child (he was actually known to everyone else by his middle name Henri)

This made me giggle, I wonder if they imagine it’s inexplicably warm.

I have a rotator cuff injury, I have to wear this twice a day to help with inflammation.

What do you paint? [or sometimes, do you do portraits?]

Three hour bath, divinely scented (coumarin bath salts), barely lit by beeswax candles, somewhere between sleeping and waking.

All love poèmes are embarrassing misreadings.

Plants being lifted, soil being forked, clearing, remodelling.

Blurry Sunny Sky, cold and dazzled

What helps with the overwhelm is a long walk and the garden. (Lifted all the summer Drummer allium to redistribute in various beds) 🌱

Just a bit overwhelmed by modern life.

Remember to breathe / try to exhale / feel your feet on the floor / big toe, little toe, heel / it will be ok / you will be ok / i promise

why am I so tender lately / and crying all the time / persimmon cake / winter narcissi / do I really need a jumper (yes)(but still) / panicking about power of attorney / cancelling plans / when can I return to the reformer / all the bulbs that still need planting / leaks / external examinérs report

Laundry / puttîng the studio table on rollers / not answering messages / hankering / writing feedbacks / two conférence abstracts / menu / headphones / will sleep be impossible again tonight / and who to blame for it / earworm / all the things i have not replied to / i hate the duvet / médication /

Flight bookings / new glasses / Christmas dinner / workshop on portfolios / is Hermès red a thing / packing / workplace aliénation / new hairdryer / will my studio be ready before spring / rotator cuff / emails / flea treatment / Canadian winterproofing / Adana rollers / residency application / etc

YouTube video by We Bury Dead Satellites In The Ghettos Of Eden Kayakata - incantation for finding/losing oneSelf (unreleased შელოცვა)

This (unexpectedly) helped bring me to life today youtu.be/XE2sZ5iJOoo

Yes, not the kind of thing that keeps your ears warm!

pretty often i wish the text had never been made into an image

YouTube video by awetblackbough Lisel Mueller reads Monet Refuses The Operation

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Good news from my eye doctor, no further deterioration in vision, no progression of the damage, i wept with relief. And then had a big apple ice cream and went to look at some art.

Not for walking the dog!

Yes, I’m inclining to the bonnet I think.

The beanie more, I’d think.

What, after all, is Friday Night for, apart from feeling a little over-tired?

Uniqlo red beanie

Kiltane red bonnet

Bluesky, I need some help with décision-making on a red hat. Which should I pick, a uniqlo beanie or a Kiltane bonnet?

It is not much fun being strapped into a massive icy breast plate when it is already cold.

oh i missed you

Which is ridiculously charming, obviously, and i *do* love a string quartet.