TheArkon

i really need to release.

For the past few months, ive been trying my best to live my best life. I made a lot of friends, I've became quite smart, and keeping a healthy diet, but I'm still worried if I'm going to fail again, the pressure is getting to me, and it feels like im slowly falling.

Life is so complex now that i kinda want to draw comics bout it, I wish to share my experiences, good and bad
let's see if i actually do it

I thought i would get used to failing in life, still hurts the same, but i'll keep failing till I make it!

I've been reading a slice of life manga about NEET siblings
The best manga to read when I'm down, it's funny af

#pixelart #digitalart #art #fanart
#NEET #HatarakanaiFutari #TheJoblessSiblings

Tbh getting some amount of likes made me want to follow trends and become more popular, but i dont really want to do that
I like lots of niche stuff, and I'd be sad if I don't draw it just because there's no audience

I was listening to a Teto song, and she was wearing maid outfit, I have to draw it

#art #pixelart #digitalart
#kasaneteto #teto

I'm a group leader, so i thought that i need to show that im dependable and competent, but took me while to realize that i dont know shit and hold the assignment, i need to learn to rely on others and do what i can, and i dont think it's a wrong step

i had been repeatedly listening to weathergirl by FLAVOR FOLEY
it was stuck in my head for a week, so i really had to express how much i love the song

#flavorfoley #weathergirl #fanart
#art #pixelart #digitalart

Despite being born during the time Internet starts to boom, I've grown a deep hatred towards it.
As much beauty it has given me, it also has given me suffering and misery, yet i wouldn't want a world without it, it's too convenient

I'm mad at myself for not caring of memories in the past, because now I want to remember every moment, even the heavy ones.
It builds to who I am now, and I'm blind to it.
Now I had to retrace my steps. I wonder, if I am doing the right thing or just delusional.

Today I dedicated time for life planning and self reflection.
Just pure pen and paper.
No distraction, no music.
It's the most stressful and regretful time i had for a while, reflecting to the past is a not an easy feat, yet i felt lighter now.

I'm proud of my makeshift keychain holder, it's insane you can make a lot of stuff with leftover cardboards

2022 Moments from Boarding School
i didnt draw much back then

Failing college is the biggest thing ive done this year

tbh, im kinda glad i did, since i was pretty dishonest, experiencing a major setback in my life gives me a moment to reflect on myself and actually improving

I still had to go for college, but atleast it's what im interested in,with some debt

I'm back from the graves!

I'm gonna start posting random shit
some fun
some weird
just stupid

Sometimes i look back at my old messages and felt a bit embarrased, but it does help knowing that other people also has the same struggles

I wanted to do my best, for my parents, but my emotions keeps getting in the way, I made a mistake of bottling up my emotions, and I could be mad or cry at any moment when im alone, the only solution i have to this right now is expressing it in a drawing, i hope my mental health gets better

but still confused, i dont feel like doing it, it feels like im slowly dying, i dont even know what im looking forward in future, what is the point if this

im forced to study my final exam, i dont want to care, but i had to so i could secure good job for the future, i dont even know what job, but it must pay good, so i could support myself without burdening my parents...

Don Quixote from Limbus Company
-WE SHALL GALLOP ON TOGETHER
#pixelart #limbuscompany

Ah so cooooooolll!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR MYSELF!
man im gettin older 💀

I've decided to start learning pixel art again, from the basic
I want to understand pixel art from its roots, not just as a medium
I think there's joy in starting over, even if at a loss

I guess that's why I'm still not giving up art, hoping it would fill my hollow life with something, a reason to strive for, perhaps a new dream

I dont know how much it had affected me that my childhood dream job was "working in a cubic office with a computer"
My interest in art only came due to my friend influence, I envy ambitious people because I lack any reason to continue living, drowning myself in pleasures, and im getting sick of it.

Im not sure if it's healthy, everytime im faced with future adversity and im shit ass nervous, i always tell myself "i will get through this like ive always done, just... a week, it doesnt matter in my whole life"

" I don't want to be this kind of animal anymore " - Harry Du Bois

Today I was forced to be involved in volunteering work in an eco park.
My team were tasked to rake and collect leaves on a huge field.
I wasn't having the best experience.
But after seeing a family setting up a picnic on the field, it gave me a soothing feeling I hadn't felt for a while.

Bite me

coffee or tea?
a debatable question, but I mostly prefer coffee, since it kinda helps me stay awake

Im gonna try drawin now