Kay

1. No verbal ability but no shutdown
2. Can speak, but not well/short sentences or words
3. Only sounds/vocal stims but no words

Those are the ones I can think of rn
Maybe they already exist idk
I'll try to come up with names tomorrow

-Offending nonverbal people. Like I know going nonverbal isn't a good phrase but verbal shutdown doesn't always fit either because it doesn't feel like a shutdown, just a state of being. So I'm going to write my experiences and then come up with names for them (2)

I wanna create new verbal terms
Like verbal shutdown only describes a specific experience for me and it's not what happens every time I can't speak.
@cherrycarnation.bsky.social coined Vocalflux, which fits my experience as a whole.
But idk how to explain where my verbality is at without- (1)

I got E6 Cyrene!!!!! Yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

My partner failed in making a steam account 2 times so far by typing their password wrong and then using all the password changes allowed.
They succeeded on the 3rd try tho so yay!

This never really came up again until today. We were out shopping and I heard them both use the wrong pronouns so I asked them to use my preferred ones, and my dad refused harshly.
However I did notice my mom using the correct ones later one I the day so maybe I got one win? (3)

I also asked them to use They/Them for me as well. My mom is basically indifferent, and probably just forgot but my dad said he wasn't going to, when I asked why he said people forced him to use the right pronouns for someone and got called transphobic for accidentally using the wrong ones (2)

So I'm not closeted from my parents, I have come out to them both as nonbinary aroace lesbian (just to be simple since they probably don't know specific terms) and a while asked them to use my preferred name, Kay, and it took time but they are using it. (1)

I don't wanna wake up super early tomorrow... I wanna stay up and procrastinate sleeping and do a mix of writing and daydreaming

Finally switched to Linux, well on my laptop anyways
I'll hopefully set up my PC for Linux soon too, just need to find a cable (or go back to Walmart)

E5!!

I got E4 Cyrene!!!! + Lightcone!!
I also got Castroice's lightcone so everyone on my main team has their signature lights cones!

AAAA THE TITLE SCREEN CHANGED THE TITLE SCREEN CHANGED IN HSR!!!!!
AAAAA ITS SO PRETTYYYYY
IM SO EXCITED AAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

Guess who's finally going to edit the Evernight pulling video? Me!

Only took like the whole patch or something, lol

Hsr servers are down
I only had one event left before I finished every event tho!!!!!!!
And also I was converting Jades to pulls but the server went down right as I tried to do that!
Aaaaa
Im so excited for Cyreneeeeeee!!!!!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
•v•

Oh ya, I got a carrot from one of the houses, also a potato. I dont like cooked carrots so imma not cook that but tomorrow I'll be cooking potato chips!
Probably the weirdest thing I've gotten on Halloween but I dont mind!

Halloween was really fun
I went with 3 people who I consider family so I really enjoyed it!
My legs feel crippled, I didn't walk too much. I think it was for maybe 30 mins before we drove around to people's houses to visit specifically.
Im hoping next year's Halloween is just as fun (maybe more!!!)

Eeeeeeee!!!!!
My ears and tail came in today!!
I got to be me for Halloween!
Yayy!

When I then woke up at 4AM I went to scroll on tiktok and get a message back from my dad at 4AM saying that I can order it!

Also btw I forgot the tonetag I meant to put a /j after the My dad's psychic.

So I'm pretty happy rn tho, it should arrive soon too!

My dad's psychic

So my body has been deciding that waking up at 4 AM is helpful or something idk so for the past few days I've been awake at 4AM.

So last night I texted my dad asking for money for my gear (I just said Amazon order tho.) And then went to bed expecting it to cost too much rn. (1)

The next rest day for me is next Saturday

That's a while away　, afterwards I'll soon start having rehearsals for a play, so I won't be having many rest days.

At least the pain doesn't bother us when we are just sitting

Unless our posture is bad, then it does or will.

Y'all I am crippled again
I walked at a Halloween party
Thats all.

I might need a cane

I know there isn't a too young for a cane
But like
Im barely out of middle school.

I have something tomorrow, too, so I still dont have a full recovery day

And Monday starts the weekdays again...

Whyyy, I woke up at 4 am again!
I just need to sleep body so pls just sleep! For the right amount of time too!

It is physically painful to stand up or sit up.

We went to the park today, our body is in a lot of pain. We ran around and swang for 4 hours with hydration and breaks.
How are we so crippled??

Oh no, my money! it's all gone! It disappeared. i wonder why? Surely im not going to spend it on Cyrene, Hyacine, and Castroice!

Anyways, hai! Hoyo is robbing me in 3.7. Stay tuned!!! /hj

Eeeee, im so excited!!!

I woke up like way too early but can't go back to sleep because there is a hsr special program soon.
Im so sleepy

I hate trauma

Like one mention that could be remotely similar in an argument, I instantly start crying.

And now I don't trust that person, at all.

Im cutting them off as soon as I can.

So I think I'm going to just be neutral on them. I found a different term that I like more for these things, so I won't identify with any, but im not going to be pro or anti on it.

I'll order some of the stuff for Christmas and try it out, probably only the skin stuff though, I don't want to use contacts.