Monika

I’m also attempting this same portrait for the third time, because I might suck at art, but I’m tragically stubborn 😔 ✌️

I’m shaking with joy over these charcoal procreate brushes. It’s unbelievable how fun these portraits are to work on 😩 #wip

Once I accidentally stumble into an immense wealth I’ll be supporting so many artists’ patrons. Just wait 😔

Guessed the wordle word on the last try, but I don’t even know what it means 😔

Thank you 🥹

Got this cheap printer, but according to my research it could print on thick watercolour paper and it, in fact, can !! Yay 🥹 I’m excited. I want to try some mix media projects with it

Thank you. Unfortunately, I feel like it’s a bit of a step back to my previous work and I can’t bring myself to finish it. I need a different approach 🥲

I will stop worrying about messing things up constantly and just paint 😔😩🎨

Mmmm

Thank you for the misplaced optimism 😌

It’s just a bit of nothing tho. Looking at a photo might be more enriching. I’ll have to find a different approach here 😩

I’m struggling here. Two days spent on this painting and technically it’s not bad, but it lacks any flow and I hate it 😩 it’d be like 4th painting I scraped for that reason this month. I’m feeling stuck and demotivated.

Yeah, I don’t want to block or mute people , but I don’t want to engage with the promo. every frame will be over analysed and beaten to death by the time show comes back and it kills my excitement a little, ngl 🥲 I fear I’m in minority on this

It’s looking amazing so far!

It wasn’t anyone from my family but friend’s.

I mean it’s not even that. A lot of artists get anatomy or light wrong all the time (including me). this artist doesn’t have any of these issues either. What was my issue is about 300 fully detailed paintings from September 2025 when the account appeared and process videos being nonsensical

It’s so hard to avoid 😭😩 I’m still mad I saw the pictures from shooting too. I fear I’m setting myself up for unrealistic expectations 😔

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it's updated! aw thank you 🥺🥺 that is very kind of you!! don't feel like you have to tho!

I’ll update it tomorrow morning! I wasn’t sure if there would be much interest so I kept it simple 😅 thank you again for the support 🖤😭

the 36 colour Holbein acrylic gouache set that costs 160€ in here costs 60€ in Japan. I’m banging my head against the table that I didn’t get into traditional art while in Japan. I’m feeling nauseous.

I bought some no bleed marker sketchbook before, but the paper has no texture and I’m a big fan of textured paper 😩😔

The paper they used is also insanely good quality with zero bleeding and perfectly lets the markers mix. I think the sketchbook that came with it is the same. 👀

Might be a glorified colouring book, but it’s so good at making me learn the technique fast?! I don’t have to worry about ruining everything I drew and just focus on getting good at using the markers, mixing colours and inking with the pens. Can’t wait to see how it redefines my process 🤔

I finally bought prints from my favourite artist and I’m absolutely thrilled

People are way too comfortable putting all of their personal business on tiktok 😬😩

🥲🥲 thank you!

A heated rivalry painting. Shane is surrounded by darkness and Ilya is pulling him from behind into the light. Snowdrops are growing between them.

Close up and Shane’s and Ilya’s faces

before the snow melts 🤍 #heatedrivalry #hollanov

Thank you 🥹

Aw I was hoping it would 🫣 🖤