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npc life fr sigh

every now and then you gotta just jam to taeyeon's rain

even more a diff kpop after the pandemic smh

kpop was a diff kpop after 2016-18(max)

randomly heard aiiyl by bp when i passed by a store today and ngl it is still sm better than their songs nowadays to me

maybe there really is just no getting better

anyway i think this will be solved if i wfh lmao being around people involuntarily is going to make me wanna :knife:

gotta learn how to enjoy my own company and whatnot yeah i know all that

smth so sick about being isolated and trying not to be lonely while you are also tired of interacting with people bc all it does is make you feel worse and even tired

honestly i am hungry just reading this lmao i want wonton soup too and normally it would cost less than 16 yuan in china too depending on the portion size :(

im so tired of these week long days

我觉得很可悲的一件事是明知道这世上没有真正的感同身受，却还是愚蠢地期盼着有朝一日或是和那一个看起来谈得来的朋友谈话时能真正地了解自己和自己脑袋里天马行空的想法

我们没说过话，也不知道说这些对你来说算不算称赞，但我时常在主页刷到你，每次看到你分享的内容虽然有时不太能全看明白，但觉得你是个很用心的人，文笔也很细腻 ❤️

但又怪得了谁呢

中午和同事吃完午饭回来的路上突然察觉我似乎时常“跟”错人了，我似乎常在不能给我长久安全感的人身上找安全感。虽说没人让我这样，但我总在一次次地对自己和对所有人失望。

i hv things to do yet nothing beats the one thing that i want to do the most. the saddest part of it is that it's also the one thing that i couldn't really enjoy doing due to reasons

sigh, i'm tired of even complaining about the same things now

yall i have gotten dinosaur nuggets plushies

even no one would ever reblog my promo posts lol how to even survive in this rpc anymore, how to even continue to enjoy writing when i want to share and create together

and since it's being so slow it's also depressing me. bc where else could i hyperfixate and/or get delulu on? pinterest is cool but tumblr is smth else?? prob clearing the history and browsing data, cookies and whatnot could help but that would mean clearing all my unbookmarked tabs??

the more i think, the more depressed i get. i should sleep but sigh

love that all my tags are just ru qing yun aka love in the clouds

this is probably a problem but idek how to move about this lmao

ok i do know but like, how

thinking this could also be bc i'm used to making jokes at my own expense & not knowing how to accept compliments (not that i get complimented but ykwim) & when the other side is nothing but good at accepting compliments, don't get emo or self deprecating like i do? i feel the distance right away

it's like i only ever come here to complain, but sigh

it's not that the convos are hard, it's just that it's so hard to feel comfortable or bored in a convo? idek if this is exactly it but yeah

sigh when you want to just genuinely chat with someone who seems cool but it's so hard to even feel validated somehow. it's like i'm pretending to be someone i'm not somehow.

"What character changed your brain chemistry?" and it's my own OCs

why is tumblr website so slow lately