I’m Nolan

I am the April fool. Friday 5x5.

Thought the days were getting easier. They are not

Waiting on my burger

March 2025 has been one of the worst months of my life and has likely altered me forever. I hope to never experience anything like it ever again but I know probably will. Thank god for music that makes me cry or scream. For music in general. 10x10 because it’s that serious

Heartbreak so painful I’m thinking about moving somewhere rural

PB+J for breakfast

Feeling things Friday. 5x5.

Dancing in the Club - MJ Lenderman Version This Is Lorelei, MJ Lenderman · Dancing in the Club (MJ Lenderman Version) · Song · 2025

On repeat while I sob uncontrollably

Volcano Balls Excuse Me Who Are You?, Tiny Voices · Double Bind · Song · 2024

I wonder if you’re still the same or if you are just adding insult to injury.
Did it kill you like it killed me?
A picture perfect portrait of my pain and suffering

But thanks to her I am who I am
I know I’ll never see her ever again

Paths forward. Winter 2024-2025.

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Legitimately leveling new single from John Galm

I wake up and immediately feel like I’m having a panic attack every day. I am in the most terrifying, painful part of my life and it doesn’t feel like it’s going to end ever

Still Crazy After All These Years by Paul Simon in my ears. Tears in my eyes. Pain in my heart.

Woman on the street asked me what I was reading as I was going from the laundromat to the coffee shop with my book. “The Power Broker, it’s a sort of biography about Robert Moses.” She had no idea who he was. I know I’m a dork I just figured people knew about Bob Moses

Reading about Robert Moses is the only thing that’s calming me down lately

Really sad week. 5x5.

That new John Galm single is making me sob like an idiot

Trying to save my relationship will either be the thing that kills me or something that supplies me massive amounts of clarity about what the rest of my life looks like

No. It’s cool. I’m just sobbing while listening to Empire! Empire! (I Was a Lonely Estate)

I’m so fucking sad every day. I just want to fix things

Hollowed out

One of those days where it feels like too much to even get out of bed

It’s been one of the worst weeks of my life. 5x5.

I should probably eat something for the first time in like 36 hours

I’ve never been so sad and anxious

In the past 5 days I have been rejected from grad school, dumped, and lost my job. I am at the end of my rope

lol I just lost my job

Anniversary Song Glocca Morra · Just Married · Song · 2012

Everyone knows everything about being alone.

But.
I.
Still.
Don’t.

Broken Cigarettes Glocca Morra · Just Married · Song · 2012

I was flying to the moon
Whenever you were around
You were slinging black holes
And I got lost in the sound
Not that you'd ever understand
But if you wanted to know
You could make me
You could break me
You choose to waste me
The only love I'll ever know

I’m a wreck