Gabriel ✿

I don't know why anyone bothers with me anymore, I shouldn't exist...

Can't even be my distrustful self in peace without having to defend it even though nobody in this life has ever given me the damn reason to be trusting

Conversation over, I'm done w it all

Wanting to die is a fun experience, always fun for the whole family

I swear I'm just gonna turn my fucking phone off, I don't wanna be fucking talked to, I don't want to hear anyone, I want to be alone.

Like yeahhh I want to but I'm not going to bc spite

Tw sui

And ofc there's a voice saying 'faker fucking die already', like okay Mr man voice in my head, sure, I'll go ahead and just die bc you say so

I don't get how I could've ever thought I'd have something like that lmfao

It's all fucking bullshit, all of it, fucking all of it

I'm better off dead

I'm a lost cause, I can't even control my own parts and then I'm supposed to believe that I'm worthy of love? Bitch please...

Who cares anyway, nobody will see or care in the end, it's always just me, myself and I I can rely on

Okay now that's out of the way, I can crash out in peace

My account will contain mentions of:

- CSA
- suicide
- self harm
- dissociation
- sexual trauma
- substance abuse
- disordered plurality
- eating disorder struggles

No pictures ever included

If you cannot handle these topics, please do not follow/block

I cannot fucking handle feeling so lonely and unlikeable, like jeez, way to be pathetic me