Doodle Chronicles

Please, can it not be my turn to feel quite so ill now?

I'm sorry things are so awful. I'm always around if you need to chat/vent! Big hugs xx

Just let us know if you think of anything xx

Thank you! Yes they mostly get on 😊

Thanks lovely ❤️ how are you this afternoon? xx

Tomorrow, the plan is to attempt the exam that they moved from last week. I have until Monday to complete it online.

Swabs confirm that the mouth infections are still bad, now moderate-heavy growth compared to heavy growth before. We're about 6 weeks in now, which is getting me down!

Went back to bed after 9am mentoring and just woke back up. I didn't sleep at all last night, so it was very needed. Now time to appraise a paper. Either doing the whole thing or stop for lunch ar 1.30, whatever is soonest, as I'm still feeling rubbish.

Glad to see this ❤️

I often feel like a Toucan't

Wow, and in English... "to be on the mend"

Really hope you're starting ro be ib the mend xx

Excellent work!

"I don't like the phrase 'a cry for help.' I just don't like how it sounds. When someone says to me, 'I'm thinking about suicide, I have a plan, I just need a reason not to do it,' the last thing I see is helplessness. I think: your depression has been beating you up for years. It's called you ugly and stupid and pathetic and a failure for so long that you've forgotten that it's wrong. You don't see any good in yourself, and you don't have any hope. But still here you are: you've come over to me, banged on my door, and said, 'Hey! Staying alive is REALLY HARD right now! Just give me something to fight with! I don't care if it's a stick! Give me a stick and I can stay alive!' How is that helpless? I think that's incredible. You're like a marine: trapped for years behind enemy lines, your gun has been taken away, you're out of ammo, you're malnourished, and you've probably caught some kind of jungle virus that's making you hallucinate giant spiders. And you're still just going, 'Give me a stick. I'm not dying out here.' 'A cry for help' makes it sound like I'm supposed to take pity on you. But you don't need my pity. This isn't pathetic. This is the will to survive. This is how humans lived long enough to become the dominant species. With NO hope, running on NOTHING, you're ready to cut through a hundred miles of hostile jungle with nothing but a stick, if that's what it takes to get to safety. All I'm doing is handing out sticks. You're the one staying alive." Credit: boggletheowl.tumblr.com

Yes, is there anything we can do to help?

Here to report that my insides are not happy!!

A ginger and cream cat led against a human's legs in bed with another cat at the bottom of the bed

Finishing the day grateful to have a warm bed, 3 cats nearby, & small bits of productivity. I managed to let myself rest whilst also getting an hour of studying done & doing a small amount of colouring. Ending the day in a better position to yesterday& revelling in the gratitude of small victories.

Sometime I just can't bear witness at all hours of the day. If I allow myself set times, I think it will work better for my mental health.

You're right, it really does permeate into everything at all times these days - I hadn't really thought about that being so different to previous wars etc. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, I appreciate it ❤️

Thanks so much, that is incredibly kind of you 🥰 I feel like I scrape by but am grateful for what I am able to achieve xx

Thank all, I appreciate you wisdom and kindness 😘❤️ xx

I know it's self-centred, but I can't bear to look at the news atm 😟

An important one! I put things off, waiting until I'm ready, & get myself stressed up that I'm never prepared enough...yet it is instead important to note that 'enough' is never achievable with my perfectionism, & actually isn't necessary. Do the things you love or want to do, don't wait for never.

You wouldn't bore me at all - it is a 100% genuine offer. I'm so sorry things are so tough. Give me a message if you need, any time xx

I wish they realised the power of their words. I really empathise. I hope seeing the decent GP can chip away at those feelings. Take care mate, and I'm always around if you need a chat xx

Hello!

Fingers crossed x

How infuriating 🤯

I'm sorry, it sounds so difficult. I hope things get easier quickly ❤️

How does one lose an electric blanket? And other questions that test my sanity.