🌌 Sapphire gambler

man I haven't been in this state in a while

idk if comphet is specifically for lesbians. compallo?

I'm deleting posts from my deeppriv twt acc and seeing posts about a crush..???? WHO'S THAT COMPHET WHAT

I take any suggestions for fun/interesting names from anyone that can be documented that they are used by afab people anywhere (yeah I also need to prove that.)

Also I don't like it genuinely what was I thinking. Like it's cool but also really? Really.

How it works with the name is that I need to 1) document the fact that I use the name (notes to me, messages, written statements from family/friends etc) and 2) it must fit the gender in my id (since I'm not medically transitioning) and the name I use at the moment is a masculine name so

It seems like I'm mentally starting the process to socially transition.... After a small breakdown I decided to go to therapy specifically with the goal of coming out to my parents, and am currently searching for a name that'd be accepted by the govt sighhh

heh added bsky to my browser sidebar thingy maybe ill remember to post here now

What those hands doin'

It's curious that I know how to stop a panic attack from happening (thankfully), but I have no solution to long-term stress/anxiety like this and so I ignore it and let it build up to this point.

My only remedy is a weighed blanket which only pauses the attack, but doesn't get rid of it

I had. Genuinely one of the worst anxiety attacks today (it's still there lingering btw) and the moment I got home I started hyperventilating and shaking like. I think I'm not okay

Me being annoying is my worst nightmare

Gosh I want ppl to read my fics but I don't want to shove them down their throats ughhhhhhhhhh

9 hrs of bg3 in one sitting I might be a bit crazy

I need to delete a (1) social media app bc I have too many but it can't be bsky

Boo

For context the only time I cared about ships and shipping in general was in middle school. Otherwise I was pretty neutral and didn’t engage much with it

Man I had my moment for fics and ratiorine and avenday and such but now I don’t rlly care anymore I’m back at square one

I'm in a boring (kinda) class rn so be ready for a spam

Will I accept that I have no social skills or will that kill me

I need to desperately write something pronto

Hi guys did you miss me

ah it's just me complaining that I don't feel drunk when I want to be sjfhdsjfg

why can't I *feel* drunk ahhhhhhhhhhh

A very draining one, and one where our views on boundaries didn't align at all to the point where I refused to keep on being close to them so
Still

Thinking about how I ended a friendship but now it's me who is spending my evenings alone if my roommate isn't here

Gahhh I want to do so much stuff

What if I explode

Man

I had a goodbye post for my dog on my twt for less than two years before I had to make a new one for him and Lucio. To say that I'm sobbing rn would be an understatement