Aniceta || edsky|| out of inpatient

Can't wait until I'm allowed to start losing again

Is it normal to have a massive breakdown whenever you think about your time inpatient bc the constant touching and force feeding felt so violating?

It'll be painful, but it's the only way I'm going to cope. Once I turn 18 and work towards moving out, I can lock in again during summer.

I'll also try and maintain my weight, and once everyone is convinced I'm on my way to recovery (which means they'll back off), I'll get back on track

Since the meal plan is vague, I can make low calorie swaps for the things they gave me while inpatient. My parents don't read calorie labels, so they won't notice.

I've figured out a plan

How do I fake recovery now that I'm out no glue no borax

The refeeding program made me gain 3kgs. I'm gonna kms

end of summer*

I hate how my only options on this fucking refeeding program are fear foods. Makes me want to kms

They're letting me out next week, so I hope I can secretly get back on track and lock in before the end of bc I can NOT start uni as a fat fuck

I've been going along with the inpatient refeeding plans bc I want to get out of here, and it's been absolute torture. I've already gained a little.

Once I escape inpatient, I'm going to have to lock in so hard

I hate how the choices are getting fat ("refeeding") or getting sectioned.

How to get out of inpatient without getting fat no glue no borax

If I come out of inpatient fat, I'm genuinely going to hang myself

The inpatient meal plan makes me wanna kms

Guess who's been re-hospitalised (I'm gonna kms)

I fucking jinxed it

I hope I can keep it hidden until I turn 18. After that, they can't do shit.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkk

I really hope they don't, as I don't want to be sent back to forced recov

I think my family is starting to catch on to my relapse.

Milbona protein products have me in a chokehold. #1 safe foods fr.

In all seriousness, losing my period is probably my favourite part, other than wl.

"Ana makes you lose your period!" Good.

Losing my period again has been the most freeing thing ever.

Having a restrictive ED in a West African family that cooks a lot and is constantly trying to shove food in your face is NOT for the weak, bro.

#lemonwatersky #edbsky #butterflyana #thinspo #edbsky #ednotsheeran #edtwt #edmemes #caterpillarsky

I had to break it because I almost passed out. I'm such a weak-ass bitch