Blingbling 🔞⚧️💎

my unfortunate opinion about the csa portrayal in gachiakuta is that while i do think it is a valid depiction and one that made me feel things, i did think at first "ugh this is going to be the anime csa representation thats going to set the standard for the "RIGHT" way to depict it" 🙃

i just learned about yu menglong... tell me why its so normal to play distressing audio clips on news with no warning?? oh my god i dont need to hear the screams of a man and his dog being tortured and killed like what makes u think thats appropriate to expose ppl to with no warning?! cw: true crime

lately i feel like eating is such a chore even more than usual. everytime i make food i'm like "ugh i have to eat this?" even if its something i like. my appetite is all out of whack. its so frustrating

nobody tells you that looking for stuff is 20% cleaning your house and 80% standing around trying to even remember when is the last time you even saw the thing

the humiliation ritual of talking to the lady through the window in front of everyone about your food stamps 🥹 in the middle of the day mind you

ive been sitting here hyping myself up to go do this thing for two hours now 😫😫 any agoraphobes in chat 🥹✌️

my plug is the sweetest cutest guy ever but hes also a kinda scary white guy

fullmetal alchemist entire plot is that two brothers committed a taboo and face the consequences for the rest of the story and people get mad when you ship the brothers like okay

clearly these people have skills in areas i dont...

i feel bad comparing my art to others but sometimes its the only thing that reminds me of my skill. there are people out there with art styles i dont like and objectively less skill than me making fulltime salary pay. why shouldnt i chase what i want too

i keep having this thought that like. my art isnt good enough to be making real money off it (like multiple hundred or thousand dollar commissions) but then i see artists who are full time free lancers and like 90% i would not personally commission lmao so maybe theres hope

im over all the partying already

we're already at risk because my partners work in childcare now imagine going to a party... yeah. also we go bankrupt every halloween trying to put together costumes. its so much stress and we dont have a place for crafts or time or energy and its just a no for me

trying to formulate a message to tell my dear friend that i cant go to their halloween party because i just got covid and im still recovering and i'll just get sick and wont have fun and theres no way to be covid safe at a party and have fun

trying to be social in the covid era as a disabled person is basically like going around asking to be shot

one of my internet pet peeves is when people post shippy stuff and then be like "not a ship" like now you just pmo

everytime i see those factsforpeace ads on youtube i just want to throw up

even if theres no gender ambiguity or crossdressing, objectification and sexual assault are, like, societally coded as emasculating ? so theres this inherent feminization in abusing shotas. so this makes for a lot of fun emotional journeys you can take your shota on

i'm brushing up on my moe studies... i think the reason why shotacons have such a different vibe is because shota are inherently gap moe. and ive noticed a lot of us are attracted to the gender fuck of shotas

i have some vague categories like, clothes, personality archetypes, abuse dynamics (parent/child, student/teacher), and design motifs

i'm trying to make some sort of lolishotober prompt list for next year. im also trying to pinpoint some overarching broad themes. generally abuse and noncon and power reversal are pretty common but i think that might be TOO broad, not lolisho specific enough

calling all lolishotacons. i'm braindumping some common tropes, themes, symbolism, etc present in lolisho art. for example i have things like, shotajiji lolibaba, kemololisho, school uniform, pigtails, backpack, swimsuit, ballet, braces, chipped teeth, loose tanktops, etc listed

ive drawn niche shota porn you couldnt even imagine

i also like that maybe only a 5th of my art has been seen by other people it makes me feel like a Real artist like hehehe my secret files

and thats not counting the canvases that have multiple drawings on different layers or all of the traditional art ive done (mainly just doodling in notebooks and receipt paper). i should just take a moment to appreciate my drive

i officially reached 800 canvases on procreate. and i have about 200 from csp here and there. so sometime recently i surpassed 1000 canvases on my ipad 🥳 really puts things into perspective you know? i feel like i do nothing but i really do even if its just doodles

i will never forget when i watched bluey with my boys and the... forced incest yaoi episode happened?????????????????? and thats when i realized im too perverted to interact with anything

of course you have a noncon kink you dipshit it came free with your fucking lack of autonomy inherent to childhood

i fear my obsession with underage incest rape is clinical and its terminal

you ever see a post online that makes you remember how much terminally online brainrot you have