HOLY SHIT JAY I DIDNT KNOW U DID STUFF LIKE THIS!!! THIS IS SO BADASSSSSSS I LOVE THISSSS IM JAM CAT RNNNN
I uploaded a new cover!
Gourmet Race ~ Kirby Super Star | YM2612 + SN76489 Cover
youtu.be/lPvvSqQbEnk?...
FB let me POST.
. i . 🧍♀️i genuinely can't recall being this suicidal. What the fuck HAPPENED.
Facebook won't let me post anything else for today so have this video of my catto gato i love her so much
Deleted my new puppybatter acct to claim the username on this acct instead :3 that way im not trying to manage so many alts lmao
I don't really think I'm going to be happy staying alive like this. I don't want to be here. I don't actually want to do any of this. I wish i never met anyone. I want to die without a shred of guilt in my body. I just want to be dead.
2025 Art Review
OMG HAI MY FRIENDS YOU HAVE FOLLOWED ME BACK I MISS YOU
Cuz uh last time I checked, it's a miserable time to be alive right now. And probably just gets harder from here. So Im gonna need some vice if not alcohol to cope lmao
And now that I just... do it. Im like cool so I guess I just have to exist with constant anxiety of the future if not those two things. I just want a break without feeling the need to get high. Which is probably the source of my issues, but how do you expect me to function 8 hrs a day otherwise?
I have just been going to work and not knowing what to do with myself outside of work when I get home. I dont particularly WANT to do anything. I dont even want to shower. So i spend my evenings anxious about needing to shower but not wanting to and needing to work tomorrow but not wanting to.
How was this 7 days ago already
Call this coping with vent art
It feels so pointless venting to anyone when all they can say is :((( im soweey...
Why am I talking to you.
Me not getting my gel and hairspray setting me off? More likely than you think!
Shit like this makes me want to scream and throw shit around and hurt myself ngl lmao I have emotionally managed up until this point i deserve to punch myself in the gut as a treat.
I love being depressed and the only thing i daydream about is food. Im nearly 300 fucking pounds, its the last thing i need.
I need to hyperfixate on sex or weed again. Anything lmao.
Vent Art
Breakfast lmao Too depressed to make anything else
Was gonna watch it but forgot im broke and idk how to pirate shit without downloading a virus lmao
Its scary to have the memory that The Iron Giant played on repeat so many times on my little tv as a child, but i dont remember a single scene. Just the big robot being there for me.
Girl notes be like
Dramamine cure me
Ouuuh my head hurt...
Its 10:30 am and my nose is red and eyes feel puffy after sobbing so much.
Hello it is 8 AM in the morning and I am sobbing over not getting to be the boy I wanted to be bc of TikTok
Im obviously nonbinary or some shit, but when youre nearing 30 and have been used to being A Woman all your adult life, it's like..what point is there asking who am I anymore?
I'm just Pau.
Ordering Checkers at 2 AM because we give up on life teehee
Therapy is gonna be a doozey tomorrow.
