*(Anyway I haven't slept for two days and my depression spirals have somehow transcended and full circled into wisdom... Holy I need sleep... :)*
One day you will find your pack. The people who will care and listen. See you at your lowest and will only help pull you back. Bonds with the strength and care to share the toughest burdens.
And you'll know when you've truely found them when you receive that apology or love even after the fallout.
There are a lot of complex emotions and moving parts to relationships. If both of you really try, then that is strongest sign of mutual respect. Even if things dont work out.
And it goes both ways, you aren't a bad guy for losing that respect. It's just better spent elsewhere. And thats okay too.
And I think thats okay?
If they don't respect you enough to talk things out, or even open your messages, then it's okay.
To disconnect your selfworth from the views and respect from those that don't reciprocate will stop them from tearing you down.
- Doesn't mean losing them wont suck though.
I've always tried to be whimsical and optimistic, but In recent I've had to adapt the reality that to some, you are expendable. Where the good times were good, perfect even. You weren't worth the bad.
To them the weight of admittance or addressing the conflict outweighs losing eachother for good.
For me, strong relationships are the ones able to give mutual respect, understanding, and care to resolve conflicts between them.
- Not the ones that are expected to never have conflict at all.
The amount of power an apology, a hug, and some empathy has to build the strongest bonds.
To continue the metaphor, for a while I had a lantern at least, a warmth guiding me out. Something to trust and follow. But the second it vanished I've found myself left only deeper.
I'll do my best king
I want out of this limbo.
But I wasn't there.. thus not happy Thursday
It was not infact a happy Thursday.
A treat for myself :3
#furry #furryart
Grawwwrr~ Looking good there pup ❤️
We gotta move this to DMs~...
A little gift art for @stuffbyliam.bsky.social 🐻❄️🧊
Damn all you had to do was ask pup ;)
Not the whole year was rough! There were some really high peaks this year. Some of the best memories I've ever had and that I will forever cherish.
I am just unfortunately ending the year on a very very low note..
Next year I can only hope I can find professional help and medication that actually helps. So far nothing has. I want to get better more than anything.
And maybe one day, when I'm better I will be able to trust again, love again, feel normal again. And perhaps even post work again.
I have hit breaking points, bringing me to a couple serious suicide attempts. At this point I am desensitized to it, and it really scares me.
Those who said they would support me through it have given up. Stopped caring, and cut me out like a cancer. Only proving that I made their lives worse.
Every goal of mine gets further and further out of reach. I studied 7 years (Digital Design) and build up debt that hasn't even landed me an entry level job in a year of looking. And with the way the world is looking with AI and economy It's a wonder why I even try anymore.
I have been struggling with mental health for a while, and it has effected how I act and treat myself and people around me. I haven't had the motivation to work on anything, none of my interest bring me happiness anymore, allwhile being unemployed and unable to find work.
Awwwrr I'm sorry you had to go through this. It feels like a very similar experience. I hope I can make it through it like you have.
I want to believe me and him can be friends again someday. But its too early to tell.
All my favourite things, combined into one! I'm sold~
This looks super good Douglas!
I wrote this right before reading Arches for the first time, which is weird, because as I kept practicing, I started to feel like somehow it was *about* Arches. Or about the same kind of thing, at least. Anyway, I hope you like it, stay strong <3
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Mic quality sounding gooood~
It's a really nice song Coda!
Nah. I'd call you speciesist to your face. ♥️
You sure hes a random? He seems to know you pretty well already :)
Dude no joke I already got Blueroo to do some bear doodles for a tattoo just like this sometime soon ~
I love these so much!
Imma get me something done from you one day, if I win the raffle or not!~
Awwww thank you! This is really good~ ♥️
