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damn i log in once every few months js to update that im still not over #that man but i will be (unless... 😭)

worst fcking eid in a decade what a full circle moment

not to mention how i look for his qualities in other men. this is crazy how ive gone through months just based on straight up delusions 💀 im 100% sure im missing the feeling and not the actual infatuation bit

ik im supposed to move on cuz there’s no way this is ever going to work but i don’t think i’d ever forget how he was the most gentle and considerate man ive ever met. hes straight up the type ive always envisioned 💔 this was a good character development experience ngl we live through and we move on

but god i feel so mean for this. i hope she changes herself for the better and stops seeking validation from the men her girl friends are into

deleting every pic i have of her in my gallery bcs i quite literally do not want to do anything with her

cuz tell me why every soft boy that i lowkey like isnt even into girls 😭 i hate how men get everything

lord pls find me a man that’s not into men

lord save me cuz i found out last week that the man ive liked for quite some time is probably w someone and i fear theyre not even into girls anymore 😭💔 go off king ill just move on (but ngl it hurts cuz he kept giving mixed signals but thats alright ig)

this week was disgusting cuz wdym i had to end two friendships to protect my own sanity, broke my own heart, accidentally damaged personal relationships—ive been aged by a decade in this week alone

but ig i can finally move on. but damn it wouldve been fun, if he couldve been the one

so nauseous cuz lmfao ofc this was gonna happen to me

i got flowers on valentines day (it was my cousins engagement party and all of us got gajrays) :')

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i hope both sides of her pillow are always cold. i hope whenever the sun shines down on her, she feels its radiant warmth instead of scorching heat. i hope she wins the lottery. i hope she wins at life. i hope she's always happy.

cause you should've seen him when he first saw me

yk what it never was

that serious

idk, maybe im wrong, but it feels like one’s more inclined to end up in a genuine and healthy romantic relationship if the other forms of love in their lives are satiated

im aware many have alr had this realisation before me but after witnessing my friends’ and cousins’ failed relationships/situationships—and as someone who’s never been in one—i finally understand the significance of feeling secure in all other forms of love before exploring romantic ones

I WANT TO CUDDLE WITH A BABY FOX TOO PLS

I did not expect to have a favorite bishop in 2025. That's a first.

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apologies to my moots for being forced to bear through my posts as if theyre my diary entries lmao 😭 im just a girl cmon

this bitch didn’t even last a day 👎🏻 GOD I DIDN'T KNOW I COULD BE LIKE THIS

i am a fcking liar istg i thought i was past this but it’s come back and hit me w the force of a bullet train after DAYS ok. i need to get fined for this free luigi and send me in his place cuz that place is for liars and i lied i wanna kms but not rlly but wtf aksjsjsndbdjssmsm

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we going to war next week

ok guys it’s actually serious bcs i know i won’t lose it if i see him in my fav bookstore tomorrow. ive started to get the ick bcs i remembered i was supposed to be a misandrist

idek how to write a lit review but let’s just hope i got this cus i have no other choice but to be done with this damn paper TODAY

god forbid a divorced/widowed brown woman smiles, dresses up, does makeup, goes out with friends, and generally moves on and finds herself a new partner 🙄 but a brown man can do all of those things and even more with the additional support of his entire misogynistic society without being slut-shamed

FR like atp this semester has ended ME instead of ending itself 😭

another horrible day for brown girls living in toxic family households who know very well that their freedom depends on their ability to become financially independent but reaching that point is so damn hard bcs the economy and country would put them down at any given moment

you and me both 😭 i have a research paper, a news package, and an 8k word project due TODAY 😭 after that the semester ENDS