lucien☆

today i had my first ever argument with a coworker?? she told me i couldnt put something in a place because apparently mochi is a biscuit (after telling me i am the best at stocking food), and we went back and forth, i walked away and then i found out she moved the mochi back to the biscuits.

and sometimes i've told her whole entire stories like for example a coworker leaving and then i rementioned (not sure if thats a word) that xyz left and she was like "ohh really? i didnt know that" LIKE WERE YOU NOT LISTENING TO A SINGLE THING I JUST SAID? if you didnt hear what i said just ask omfg

like i don't really know but i have never seen this behaviour before like i dont think you should be treating a baby like that just because theyre babies? though like obviously ive never had kids (and will never) but i've raised my sister and i can tell u rn that just sounds disrespectful asf.

and she just makes jokes that are really.. like theyre just not funny AT all. i wonder if thats why she just prefers working with kids (she wants to work in a nursery) but also she talked about her kid and she said she mocks her baby when she cries and stuff at her face and i was like oh.......

she honestly has to be in the top 3 offputting people i've ever met. i have always wondered if i'm just being mean and shes neurodivergent and doesn't know because im sensing patterns but she stares for TOO long like sometimes i catch her straight up staring at me and its awkward as hell

i probably would've said no anyways because shes always on registers and i can't talk to people for the life of me, but i also would've said no because i'd be doing her a favour and i really dont fucking like her. she spends her whole entire shift complaining, just shut up and do ur work or quit.

dude one of my coworkers has been PESTERING my friend to ask me to cover her shift and my friend said multiple times i was on holiday and not even in town and she even got my friends friend to message them to ask me?? if you want to ask just ask me up straight and i would've said no??

i tried playing hsr and i honestly just preferred genshin more i just felt it was easier to understand, i might be wrong now though, and i havent played genshin properly in a long time :(

thank you!!

"do you have a boyfriend yet?" I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE I HATE PEOPLE

people are so fucking tiring all i need is a cat

also the guy isnt conventionally attractive at all (not that I care im not shallow) but he literally does care and he hated my ex because he wasn't conventionally attractive and like. he would always call my ex ugly and shit.. idk. maybe it will make him realise that looks don't matter

im literally only friends with him because we have good conversations sometimes and its convenient

also? different topic but my friend is sort of in a thing with this guy rn and im just. perplexed. because hes SUCH an asshole to me and other people i dont even understand how he has friends nevermind how he literally is with a guy rn?!?! what the fuck am i doing wrong?!?!?

sh warning (just a mention)

and he relapsed because of her too.. boy shes not fucking worth it please get that into your brain why are you giving someone so much attention when they dont even like you!?!? you put yourself through so much shit instead of learning how to be alone and love yourself

it really sucks watching him basically "ruin" his life (im not sure how to word this) because hes drinking more than usual which he says isnt an issue but hes literally emotional drinking, and going to bed at like 6am and constantly crying over her. i wanna take him by the shoulders and shake him.

it pisses me off that my ex is in love with this girl and in a relationship with her when she doesnt even care about him!! she literally continuosly argues with him, doesnt message him etc. buys her girlfriend expensive stuff but not him. boy wake the fuck up. SHE DONT LOVE YOU AND THATS FINE.

i had to remind my best friend of 7 years that it's my birthday today. nobody has said happy birthday to me other than two of my friends and my family.

im angry because not a single coworker remembered it was my birthday (hey i can't remember any of theirs so idk what i'm so angry and upset about) but even my best friend hasn't said happy birthday to me. i hate U all.

is there places where you can maybe publish them online? i know there a place like that for zines, but i guess if you liked zines you could turn your poetry into zines and then publish them? i just post my poetry on the internet tbh

if i do end up with a cat, im going to struggle for a bit. not affording the cat BUT i wont be able to put away as much as i would like into my savings but thats ok! i think having a cat is so worth it.

i meant to say cat. one cat is going into labour.

my friends brothers cats are going into labour, so im going to assume that they will be ready to be taken home august... i just checked my solar lunar return chart and i literally have uranus in my 6th which is what i had when i got my beetles.

or my other manager got mad at me for being in the lounge for too long (there was nothing to do by the way i literally cleaned up everything) when she goes out to take smoke breaks on shift not even on break and again thats ok lmaoo

or like the same manager was telling us off for all being at the registers but then she started a conversation with all of us about her dog for like 5 minutes and suddenly thats ok.. lmao

oh yeah obviously though they dont get into trouble though <3

i really LOVE how my manager used a joke against me about going into our breakroom 3 times in an hour (it was literally a joke i did not and she took it well) and said we dont get paid to have snack breaks when i have coworkers who go to the toilet to go on their phones for 30 minutes!!

and their boyfriend sucks as well he cant be alone and when he is suddenly he comes running back to my friend? and my mom even pointed out that suddenly me and my friend are seeing eachother more and she got mad for me and i was like yeah i know it fucking sucks.

i really do hate the fact that i get treated better by my friend when their boyfriend isnt around lol. like wow we walked home together on sunday and then on tuesday we went on a dog walk together and then im seeing them again on saturday and monday.

its even worse because both of my best friends partners fucking suck lmaoo i hate them all