TryingMyBest

My partner uses chat gpt to send me love letters...like I get it if you have trouble finding the words but really? Chat gpt?🤦🏻‍♀️ there's gotta be a better way.

I'm back! Finally got a new phone after mine broke last month.

I was making myself burned out by having mentality of "do everything or you're failing!" But knowing that mom only expects me to do the small stuff, it seems so much easier. the tiny things I can do takes me a few minutes!

Thought mom was getting on my case about not doing the difficult things.
Talked it out, and found out she doesn't expect me to do the stuff that's difficult for me..she just wants me to do what I can. And I was putting too much pressure on myself to get the harder stuff done for her.

And at first things like paying rent + other fees felt kinda intimidating..but I can always get a credit card and set up automatic payments and get the staff to help me with that😌
And now I’m not as scared to move.

I've been watching YouTube videos on how to cook things like eggs, ground beef, rice and chicken on the stove...it seems pretty easy lol. Obviously not gonna try everything at once, but hopefully I can learn a few things before I move out!

I'm planning on moving out (hopefully) by spring/summer of next year😁 first time being on my own! I'm excited!!

Saw this yesterday ❤️

Gonna have to rebuild a few things but it looks so good already! I'm so glad I can actually see what I'm doing now (my TV has a permanent blue screen..it's very annoying so I moved my Xbox to the living room)

(Not so) fun reminder that our furnace is still broken from months ago! So the house is about to get uncomfortably cold, unless mother calls it in either today or tomorrow (unlikely). I've already had to grab my thicker blanket..

Coffee 😁

Can finally listen to music again! I'm open to recommendations 😊💜

There's nothing more freeing than realizing that you no longer want the toxic person back. Finally!!

Sleepy Bo❤️

Hope you all have a good day 💜

I forgot about this app lol, hope everyone is doing good💜 long awaited update but my ipod couldn't be fixed so I lost everything 💔 been using my phone since. On day 98 of getting my shit together! 2 months since my breakup. 2 months into my healing journey..it's been crazy.

My charging port on my iPod is broken, so might be my last post until tomorrow (if I can get it fixed)
Today was a pretty good day, got most of the stuff on my list done😌

It’s 12:20 pm
Took a 3 hour nap (should’ve set an alarm..)
Now I’m eating lunch and watching markiplier 😌

Ugh why am I tired today?

No walk this morning because it’s very windy and raining.

Day 12 of getting my $hit together:
It’s 5:55 am
Woke up with my first alarm (5:39am) had a bit of trouble getting out of bed because my room is cold and I’m a bit tired today.
Did my stretches, gratitude, affirmation’s and now I’m going to try to watch the sunrise 😌
Hope you all have a great day!💜

Day 11 of getting my $hit together:
Today was another productive day 🙂
Didn’t nap again today, and got everything on my list done!😁 feeling pretty proud of myself.

If you don't want your kids talking crap on you then be better mother bitch!!!

Went for a walk, it’s so nice outside today 😌 saw a couple of dreaded Cobra Chicken’s (geese). Gonna eat breakfast and watch Markiplier play The Last of Us😌

Day 11 of getting my $hit together:
It’s 6am
Woke up with my first alarm (5:39am) had a bit of trouble getting out of bed because my room is cold.
Did my stretches, gratitude, affirmation’s and now I’m going to watch the sunrise 😌
Hope you all have a great day!💜

Day 10 of getting my $hit together:
Today was another productive day 🙂
Didn’t nap again today, and got everything on my list done!

..I feel guilty for asking mother if I can keep the $160 I’ve been giving her for groceries for myself.
I feel guilty about asking to keep MY money for myself 🤦🏻‍♀️

Not sure why mother encouraged that
“Yea this is my boyfriend, we met a month ago and now I want him to move in rent free!” And mother was like “okay!😁👍🏻”
But if I did that she’d be like “uh I don’t think so”
If that’s not favouritism I don’t know what is…

Apparently my sister and her boyfriend broke up a few days ago, shame I thought they were working things out…but I do hope she stays single for awhile now and doesn’t have a new guy living with us in a month…