Yugo The Space Traveler 🪐(Anxiety Arc)🪐

In conclusion, I want a successful future both IRL and as a Vtuber, but due to my struggles... its very hard to feel the motivation I used to have long ago. I want to get that motivation back.... but right now, I just don't know how. However, I'm still very thankful for what I have now. Your awesome

But as of now... I'm worried what the future holds for me. Especially with how crazy everything's gotten with Trump and everything. I've even had nightmares of a third world war that turns nuclear, and I know this probably won't happen, but my mindset works in ways that I sometimes question myself

And I'm really happy to be friends with so many wonderful and amazing Vtubers who mean so much to me, but then there's me. I want to be successful like them, and like others IRL. Yet due to my struggles IRL and being on spectrum, I feel its beyond my reach. Maybe I'm wrong, and God has other plans..

It makes me feel empty, which I shouldn't be, but its hard. I try to talk more often, but if I lose focus, my game turns out going bad and no one wants that. I even got the Skyward Sword game for my B-day, but I fear I'll just be alone if I choose to stream it. I'm really happy for all that I have

My sister and younger brother have agreed to help me out, but my older brother isn't the nicest and reasonable person around, so he may not be the best choice for the more serious stuff. I don't know, folks. I won't give up streaming, but what's the point if I'm always alone with no chat?

And due to only having my mom with me since my dad is in a retirement home with severe dementia, my fear has started to rise since she's helped me with many things that a person on spectrum has trouble with. The thought of losing her terrifies me. I worry if I'll be able to survive once she's gone..

I want to find a job that I love in digital art and media, but I'd need an apprenticeship for one, and I can't do it in the first place without a decree. Most men my age have families, jobs, and their own homes. Yet.... due to being on spectrum, its very hard to do normal stuff like normal people

(4 Cont) I tell myself that I'll always do my best, but because of this, I feel like an unsuccessful Vtuber at times. On days that aren't the best, I even sometimes feel like a total failure. I want to someday have my own plushies, my own decals, and other cool stuff, and thats why I'm doing college

(4/4) Now I know I shouldn't let views or chat count bother me, but when I notice that I'm all alone on some streams and have almost none or no viewers, it makes me feel like I'm not entertaining or interesting.

(3/4) And even though I'm trying to earn that decree, my mom says that trade school is probably better since normal college isn't helping. I honestly worry how I'll be successful, and what hits hard the most is my Twitch streams.

(2/4) I also look back on the last ten years of my life and realize that landscaping just wasn't worth it. The pay was horrible, and the company I work for never fulfilled their promises to provide me help for a better future. I'm now in my mid-thirties and I don't feel successful. I feel stuck...

(1/4) Not gonna lie. My birthday was fun, but I don't feel that joyous spark like I used to. One of the reasons is due to the fact that college is wearing me down mentally and sometimes physically, and its a real motivation killer. It doesn't just kill my Vtubing motivation, but also IRL motivations

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Stream over. Finally freed another Divine Beast tonight on my Birthday, but it wasn’t easy. Raided @celtyart.bsky.social afterwards. Hope everyone has a great night and I’ll see you next time! 🚀
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YugoTheSpaceTraveler - Twitch Its My Birthday! | Afternoon Stream | Legend Of Zelda: Breath Of The Wild | (Gaming Time!)

I am now live! Come on down for my B-day stream! www.twitch.tv/yugothespace...
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I have returned, folks! Gonna be streaming soon once the NVIDIA driver is done updating!
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Welp, OBS is being a bitch again, so the streams gonna be delayed due to that and windows updates. While my system updates, I'm gonna grab something for my Mom's B day which is just two days away from mine, then I shall return and stream once I find the audio issue on OBS!
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Gonna be doing more Breath Of The Wild today while my Mom's out getting my birthday pizza in a few minutes. Just gotta get OBS working
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Your so adorable ❤️

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Love the model! 🖤

Glad I could drop by 🥰

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Stream over! That Yiga Clan was tough to deal with, but I finally reached the third divine beast! We then sent love to @crunchyypicklevt.bsky.social. Hope you have a nice night and I'll see you Wed!
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YugoTheSpaceTraveler - Twitch Greetings from the stars! I am Yugo The Space Traveler, a space traveling Vtuber with a passion for gaming, photoshop, and ASMR! I'm always exploring the galaxy for new friends and ideas, so come and ...

Now Live! Come on down and enjoy the fun! www.twitch.tv/yugothespace...
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Get ready for some more Breath Of The Wild as I search the desert for the missing Gerudo!
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Cutie Bean noises! 💚