Eihän tässä muuta voi kun toivoa, toivottavasti pääset itsekin tästä työhakemishelvetistä pois 🙏 Ihan oikeasti tää on niin mielettömän rasittava tilanne eikä kukaan ansaitse tällaista (tai no, ehkä eräät ministerit saisivat mielellään päästä kokeilemaan millaista on olla leikkausten uhri 😒)
Jep ihan kamalaa on, eihän tässä uskalla uskoa tulevaisuuteen. Jos kumppani ei opiskelisi täällä olisin jo paennut Ruotsiin... Mulla ei oo tarpeeksi työkokemusta joten en pysty erottautumaan kunnolla, en mä millään tavalla voi kilpailla jos toisella hakijalla on 20 vuotta kokemusta alalla 😅
Sorry for the rant but I need to scream into the void sometimes and pretend like my thoughts are worth listening to
So I better get this job that I've applied to now. It would literally fix everything. I know it's a job that I have enjoyed and been good at in the past. They worked with my old workplace a lot so I know a lot about them. And ofc I'd have money to pay for my damn basic necessities 💀
My self-esteem and self-confidence are at an all-time low because of this whole situation and I hate that it'll just get worse the longer I sit around at home doing nothing but that also just makes me less and less employable and it's all just this endless spiral of negativity that I can't escape
And it really doesn't feel like "oh you'll find something eventually". Unemployment in my area is at like 10% and there are 10 times more unemployed ppl than there are open positions. There literally aren't enough jobs for everyone. And my autism prevents me from doing a lot of them. Please end me
I'm scaring myself a bit bc I'm daring to feel hope for my situation for the first time in months. If I don't get it I know I'll be crushed. If I can't get this job that I'm so perfectly suited for, how am I ever supposed to get anything else? I apply for so many jobs but haven't gotten anywhere
There's this job that I applied to a few days ago which is literally perfect for me. I have the exact required experience, it's in the same field I used to work in until last summer when they laid me off. It's in my native language, a rare privilege. The pay is better than it was at my old job even.
I hate it here, state support isn't enough to even pay the rent, I only have enough money in my account to get through one more month without having to dig into emergency funds (which I thankfully have but it isn't exactly longterm sustainable) or beg my parents for more money bc I can't find a job
Would love to see Kuja and Genesis interact tbh, we could've had it all if DFFOO had blessed us 😭 (I am still sad)
This my depiction of how this is going down inside my head
Lmao true I've bullied him too much, he wanted a break 😭
Kuja single-handedly out here saving me from my art block for whatever reason, maybe I was just burnt out from drawing too much ffvii? (Sorry Sephiroth I still love you 😭)
I was possessed by a demon for the last three days and started drawing a comic about Kuja getting thrown into ffxiv post-dying and he's also a bunboy because ???? idk man, here are some highlights
Finally cleared m9s with my partner and brother, this is our first savage clear, ty to the party finder randos who came through for us 😭😭 Should have taken a picture to commemorate but was too shook by our success to remember 😅 Now onto m10s which terrifies me considering how long we were stuck here
Someone so flawless must obviously be in the right, always!
Kuja my beloved I would do anything for you
Replayed ff9. Have now been cursed with Kuja brainrot
Oh yeah my brother's wol used to be an elezen also but then he drank the bun boy juice, congrats on his transition ✨
Been battling the biggest art block of my life these past few months but I recently managed a single doodle of my ffxiv squad: my elezen, my partner's miqo'te, and my brother's viera.
(One day they will escape party finder hell and actually clear a savage raid, just you wait-)
So sorry to hear that you also have to go through this, you're not alone 🫂 I hope you can find a new job soon 🙏
Haven't really managed to muster up the will to participate in the fandom either bc of that lack of inspiration + generally just being gloomy and depressed. Been thinking a lot about how I want community around me deeply but inevitably exclude myself by withdrawing. It's a bit paradoxical
I mean writing's not the only thing I've been struggling with, I also really feel like I've isolated myself really badly since I lost my job bc I've just been so full of negative feelings that I don't want to burden anyone with... but at the same time that just means I've cut myself off from others
In general writing has just been really hard for me lately. Whole two week job flop really did a number on my brain and just overall the whole unemployment situation has been. A Lot. Makes me sad that I have, for once, so much time I could use to write but I just can't
Been trying to put something together for sefikura week but the writer's block is just too real, can't seem to get my idea to come to life the way I want it to, just feel no inspiration for it at all and I don't really have time to scrap it and start over on something else hhhhhhh
They couldn't even help bc it was already starting to heal by the time I got there so they just disinfected and wrapped it up and sent me on my way with a warning to be careful with the fingernail bc it might get infected...... arghhhh gimme a break 💀
How I managed this with a completely basic knife that was barely even sharp remains a mystery
Wanted to have a normal Sunday evening but instead I sliced half my fingernail and damn near a part of the finger with it while I was trying to put butter on my bread and had to go to the ER 😵💫
Long time no post, so that job I managed to land? It was so atrocious for my mental health that I had to quit after only 2 weeks 😭 Legitimately did not know it was possible for me to be so ill-suited for something I am even supposed to be qualified for. So here I am in my unemployment 2.0 era
Thank you!!! ❤️
