Imaginative Spirit

Thank you!!! ❤️

I've been applying to basically anything that's even slightly relevant to my skillset and this is the first one that has extended the offer (the job market here is... uh, beyond atrocious rn), but I am also happy with it! It's actually sort of in my field and I haven't had a job in my field before!

Worst of all the lack of routine!! Like?? I am too autistic for this, I can't function without one but I also lack the self-discipline to maintain one myself. Never could've expected that it would be as damaging for my mental health as it was... (and that's all without the economic stress ofc...)

Thank youuuu I am so relieved 😭

I seriously could never have prepared myself for how dehumanising and isolating unemployment would be. I was lucky to land a job straight out of university so I never had to deal with this before. The complete lack of community. How inaccessible society suddenly becomes and how empty the days get.

I am finally free from unemployment hell, I somehow managed to land a job!! Thank fucking god!! This has been the worst experience of all time!!

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 7. Howl

“D’you like me better like this?” The child’s voice was barely audible. “If I… I…” His voice cracked as another sob forced its way out of him.

“Shh”, Cloud murmured and held him close.

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#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 6. Broken

“If I kill him now, what happens?” Cloud murmured.

“I’m… not sure”, came the response, somewhat shaky on her lips. “He’s… fragmented. Barely holding himself together."

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Thank you Emi!! 🥺🥺

Aaaa thank youuu 😭💕💕

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 5. Angel

There was nothing small about him any longer, his halo of hair in constant movement even without wind, the silver painting a contrast against black leather and feathers. His eyes were closed, his face deceptively serene.

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#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 4. Library

“What is it?” Cloud asked. He leaned forward to catch a glimpse of the book. It looked like a children’s book about space. There were cartoonish planets and stars on the cover.

“I know this book”, Sephiroth said.

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#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 3. Grief

He held the sword over Sephiroth’s chest. One swift motion and it’d be over. It’d be quick and painless. Sephiroth wouldn’t even know what was happening before… before… Gods, why were his hands shaking?

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Aaaa ty 🥺🥺

#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 2. Locket

“Lucrecia?” The kid looked down at the picture, eyebrows furrowing. “But… that doesn’t make sense. They told me her name was Jenova…”

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#SephirothWeek 2025 || Day 1. Pumpkin

Cloud ate his own soup while keeping a close eye on his companion. It was as delicious as always. Tifa never failed at outdoing herself.

“Is this a test?” the kid asked suddenly.

“A test?”

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There's a little bit of Sephiroth in all of us 😔 For what it's worth I think you are cool and value your presence here!! 🫂

Is it just me or is there truly nothing that says more about a person on a deep fundamental level than the fictional comfort character they choose to build their online identity around, doubly so when you add neurodivergence into the picture

Cursed with
-conviction that ppl only want me around bc of what I can provide and not bc they like me as a person
-knowledge that the ppl around me are better friends with each other than they are with me
-lack of understanding of how to change this
& ppl wonder why I like CC Sephiroth so much

Cannot believe that this fic is what finally got me my first art scam comment, I can join the club now 😭

Writing sad Sephiroth fic to cope
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My usual beta reader has not had time to beta read for me bc life so I've just been sitting on this completely alone and it's been kinda difficult to feel like I'm not completely stuck in my own head with it, I'll be so happy when I can finally share it so hopefully someone else will care too 😂

I love how I was feeling reeeally meh about the part of my main WIP that I've been stuck working on for like a month but then suddenly something just... clicked?? And now I actually managed to get somewhere with it?? And it all somehow makes sense on a larger scale (I think)?? I'm very excited

Sooo pretty oh my god!!

Wooo awesome!! 🎉

🤝

Therapy isn't enough, I need to channel all my shit emotions into Sephiroth Final Fantasy VII so I can be rid of them for at least a moment

What's this 2am diary entry lol. I guess tldr is that I never expected that being unemployed would feel this lonely. Or that it would affect me so deeply. OR that I'm not nearly as good as I thought at finding internal validation for my self-esteem (or maybe I just need to fix my sleep schedule...)

I don't want to let myself chase validation, though. I don't want what I enjoy doing to be clouded by what others think of it. But at the same time, I don't think I've seriously considered how much I center other ppl's happiness in my life. How much I want to make an impact, even if it's small.

I feel like I'm now unintentionally starting to project that onto my writing. Creating all this unnecessary pressure on myself. I always want my fics to be finished before I start posting. Yet suddenly I feel the urge to share right away just so I can feel like I haven't stopped existing to others.