Yan

HOO WEE i love putting myself in situations then getting triggered right after

Its so hard for me to want to get close to others but then I feel shitty for being alone alot now ugh man
IT DOESNT HELP PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME ABOUT STREAMERS I WAS CLOSE WITH THAT IM NOT ON SPEAKING TERMS WITH ANYMORE IM GOING TO LOSE MY HEAD

Tfw theres ppl I dont want following me yet I cant remove them as followers :x

Also I like how people assume im close and friends with EVERYONE when thats not the case at all the 2 main people that found me through them arent even on speaking/acknowledging terms with me soo....yeah please dont assume relations with people please? Thanks?

a woman wearing glasses is talking to a man . ALT: a woman wearing glasses is talking to a man .

Its moreso of if I say nothing or get no reaction from me from the conversation or topic I have no ill thoughts im just hella uncomfy lol

"Hey! I have all this lore I need to talk about to 'xyz'!"

Me: :Y

"Why are you quiet," :o

Me:

Not gonna lieeeeeee whenever people who are friends with others im not on so good/comfy terms with and they openly talk about them like their bffs my body like implode by like 2 percent cause I just dont wanna hear it :x

Even standing next to others in xiv I just, feel like they're judging me? No response from them of me saying hello or etc and its just

Silence. My throat fucking closed up im so tired and....ugh man I wanna just stand next to my friend and not have someone make me feel like shit please.? Thank you

Not gonna lie after cutting out my toxic friend group im so fucking lonley dude haha
Part of me misses them? Like im willing to put up with their bullshit again because being alone sucks bruh

Id so be down haha if my computer didnt implode xD would have to wait till I get back home from my trip

Ive kinda accepted where I am in terms of social spaces and bubbles

Though I'm sad I don'tthink ill ever really talk to some people again it is what it is but im genuinely really happy with the new people Ive met though I don't feel anxious talking to them 8u8 they are really sweet too

Im 3mil away from being able to buy the yan mount IM RIGHT THERE

Defenitly feeling better today

Ive talked with homies and explained my situation the past few days and they were very kind and and understanding

Still recovering through stuff but im hoping to get back in the saddle soon!

These people took me through an the ultimates, took me through savage, watched movies, grew a connection only to have them spit in my face and helped ruin my connections outside their group.
I'm just really hurting right now

Imagine people you've known for a multitude of years thought they had your best interest in mind when it was all a lie full of jealousy and hate

I'm so fucking upset

If you see this message your part of the cool kids club welcome to my personal vent journal

I hate that people Ive known for more than 4 years fucked me over, over the most pettiest of shit I'm so tired.

Halooooo :3c

"Oh hey how come your not in these events?" Idk why are you prying into personal buisiness?

Actually buh moment lol

Very open i have so much room for activities

oh fug wait a minute i forgor his account is here OOP MY B FAM lol hi how yall doin <3;;;

It would be different if I knew this person was lower level but tbh we were there to gold farm aaaaaaa;;

Tfw you and your squad are all max in field op and when one says "oh I have someone!" They're level 11. We didn't have a good time tonight lmao

Ive just been very unhappy with my personal performance I think this is the worst I felt playing the game, not on anyone in particular 100% no. But I think I just felt overwhelmed with alot of stuff that the fun in playing the raid tier crashed and burned

I think in the next week or so I wanna try to slowly get back into fru ive been wanting to do it for the longest time lol
Tbh I just don't wanna do reclears anymore and I think Im just mentally done with the raid tier

me and the boys farming gold

imi gonna suck his dry ima make him look like an empty capri sun

Uh hi how's it going lol

Thank you! ^v^ ❤️

Thank you! 8u8