Licensed Little Shit

🪵 Trying to stick with the other's naming theme but let me tell you it's damn hard to find any shade of brown that ain't named after food.

🌿 A lil stressed about dnd tomorrow. If 🪻 still is MIA it'll just be me, 🐦‍⬛ and the Unnamed Looming Spectre that's been haunting me for the past ~4 days.

🌿 That awkward moment when your (presumed) ANP hasn't really been around in multiple days now hmmm;;;

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The fine line between unmasking and keeping 🐦‍⬛ from saying things that would burn bridges permanently

A drawing of a marshmallow cat floating in a mug of cocoa. The caption reads, "Please go easy on yourself today. Getting through is enough of an accomplishment."

🌿It makes me so happy to look at! It's s o cute and Luna and Artemis on the front and back cover are slightly raised, so it's really nice to run our fingers along it too

🌿 We are gonna make more of an effort to keep a diary and went to buy a journal for it, and I immediately yoinked this one. Look how cute it is!!

The peanut issue makes no sense to us, but we've observed it multiple times now. We just can't place who reacts badly to peanuts

And I wonder if Mint can front more easily because she is usually just lurking below surface level, providing daydream backdrops 🤔 Who knows, not we

More discoveries we've made recently:
- Mint is the only one who can start (co)fronting at will (How???)
- Nero & Grey both have a sense of humor that we didn't expect
- Mint actually doesn't fully vibe with 'Noah' but prefers it over our deadname still
- One of us can't eat peanuts???

🪻Y'know. Looking at our daily journaling and observing who fronts. I'm starting to suspect that spending time with our mother miiiiiiiight not be healthy for us. Wild that. 🤔

Done with Grey's character too! Pyxis is gonna be something along the lines of our Fi - but also our tank, so that'll be fun.

Gotta love a panic attack that's purely the physical reactions and 0 of the emotions because now I can't even figure out what is causing ittttt

🪻With nero and mint both having their own tumblr blogs I am wondering if I should make one too... Which is ironic considering they made their own ones because they consider our main one to be mine.

🪻Here's Nero's character! Mint was technically the one who got started on it, but I finished the lines and did the colours!

🪻Me 🤝 Mint in neither of us getting the shit done we were supposed to do today. Turns out "If I wait someone else will do the chores" only works if 'someone else' doesn't have the same idea

🌿Rough day for all of us today, but we're hanging in there! I managed to scrape together the spoons to draw my character for our fabult game, working on Nero's next! (Otherwise we just stick to the picrews we made tbh)

🌿That's genuinely so interesting woah!! I used to get medium-strong migraines on the daily, with a crippling "Out for several hours unable to move" one about ~once a week. And now I've only had like. One tension migraine from my sore neck. In almost 3 months. Brains are w i l d!

It might be a placebo ofc, but considering brain scans and migraine medication and several neurologist appointments couldn't find any physical cause or improvement for them, I like to imagine it was our brain trying to tell us something

🌿 One thing I noticed recently is, that ever since we stopped masking when we switch/our behaviour changes, our chronic migraines (which we used to have daily and pretty severely) have pretty much vanished

We should team up and strangle those fuckers in our systems that decide to Not Tell Everyone Else 🤝/j

Also learned that the german terms are so very different than the english ones. DID and OSDD are one diagnosis, with OSDD just being considered 'non-possessive form of DID' which is. A choice in wording 🤣

Sent a looooong long email to our therapist with all our plural observations so far. Now to find out if she still thinks it's too muddled for a clear diagnosis or not 😂

Like don't get me wrong, I knew we have been suspecting for a few years now. But I didn't know/remember we apparently went through this whole 'oh shit I really AM a system' spiel before, and just a few months ago at that

The funniest thing is: my friend has no memory of it either. We might've gotten the men in black treatment

🪻just realised/discovered that we had a syscovery already in spring last year. That I have 0 memory of. I feel like I'm the only mofo on this planet who somehow manages to come out to a friend about the same thing TWICE

🪻'Weird day' ended up resulting in Nero taking charge for a few hours, so god only knows what the issue was today 🤷 Either way I'm back and as far as I can tell no bridges got burned so that's a win

🌿 Hot bath cannot fix everything, but it sure can fix a LOT! Sometimes I just gotta embody my inner soup ingredient

🌿 Weird day today, emotions-vise. Maybe a hot bath will fix me

🌿 Fio's reaction to amnesia: Oh god, I can't remember things.
My reaction to amnesia: Oh thank god, I can't remember things.