Jay🐉

I truly feel proud of myself because this is a huge step of growth as a person for me. And mostly it's thanks to my friends that this growth is happening. These are people I love with all my heart and actually trust. So sending the warmest hugs to my besties and I wish y'all to find ppl like that❤️‍🔥

and instead of overthinking about their possible answers I.. just asked. And it was such a relief to hear my friends' honest answers, even though it was a bit confusing and some parts I didn't expect BUT THEY WERE SO GENUINE AND IT'S SO IMPORTANT AND PRECIOUS TO ME ->

Today's friend group meeting was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster but I managed to push my shame/awkwardness/embarrassment/anxiety/whatever aside and ask my besties a few questions that felt very tough and even stupid (?)
But I decided that I wouldn't keep my feelings and worries to myself ->

OMG SAME

Indeed that is what I am
(And you too)
(I saw this out of context and it's funny for some reason)

I love my bestie so much I can't stress this enough and I can't shut up about them I WANT TO PROTECT THEM AND MAKE SURE THEY LIVE AN AMAZING LIFE BC THEY DESERVE IT
.......we're meeting tomorrow btw CAN'T WAIT>:3

I've had so many unrequited crushes/squishes that having someone express mutual feelings for me feels weird.. In a good way tho! I just kinda feel like I might overwhelm the person with the ways I express my feelings but I can't stop bc I'VE NEVER HAD THIS I NEED TO COMPENSATE

Fun fact: I did my makeup so well that it took about 30 mins or more to wash out all the glue from my eyebrows :))))

Jay as Columbia backstage, wearing a gold sequin top hat, a gold sequin jacket and Columbia's signature bright makeup, his hair still long and black though. He is brightly illuminated from behind by a spotlight

Jay as Columbia in a car leaning against the window, smiling and playfully looking outside. His makeup is still bright, he is wearing a choker on his neck and his sequin corset top

Sooo I went to St Petersburg to play Columbia in a #RockyHorrorPictureShow 50th anniversary screening!! It went AMAZINGLY, I had an incredible time despite almost not rehearsing AT ALL lmao
Here's a pic of me backstage right before my entrance and me heading to the after-party in a taxi ❤️

I would die and then come back to see Will Ferrell or Jim Carrey as Megamind..... Even though Jim Carrey seems to be everywhere I can never have enough of him, love that guy; but Will Ferrell would just be ICONIC AS FUCK

I'm not sick but I feel exactly the same.........

I am so fuckin dumb and polyamorous.. but mostly dumb

Jay in Spongebob cosplay laying on his side on stage pretending to sleep

Jay in Spongebob cosplay on stage standing on one knee flexing his (non-existent) muscles

🧽: Gotta be in top physical condition for today, Gary!

#spongebob #spongebob_squarepants #cosplay #nickelodeon

This cosplay and performance won me a special prize at the con, so expect more stage pics ;> also I love how the photographer captured me winking, absolutely lovely

The dog is now canonically what dog breed you'd be 🌝

And happy pride to you too, Satan :з

I'M SQUEALING

Currently:
Belfast by Boney M
The Main Character by Will Wood
Sledgehammer by Ninja Sex Party
Transformers EVO by Jam Project
Abracadabra by Lady Gaga
Into You by Ariana Grande
Counting Bodies Like Sheeps To The Rhythm Of The Wardrums by A Perfect Circle
24-hour Cinderella from Yakuza games LMFAO

I'm jay *badum-tsssss*

Me (a youngling) wearing a red & green cap, a grey t-shirt and a backpack, gently holding in my hands the face of a bust of Lenin in a park

Me (a recent version) with long black hair, wearing a black coat, a black backpack and black lipstick, gently holding in my hands the face of the same bust of Lenin in the same spot in a park

2017-ish/2025

Two words: character development

I'm so worried bc on the 24th I'm performing in the cosplay contest at a con but I haven't had time to rehearse yet and I'm super afraid I'll fuck up and everyone will boo me (even tho that's unlikely) but like I don't wanna have to improvise BUT I DON'T HAVE TIME HELPPPP😫

MEEE OH MY GOD THAT'S ME

Also I had a great time drawing it and listening to the first two Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds albums, the vibes were there for sure

He's insane and so am I.
And thus the new obsession begins!! :D

#art #digitalart #sketch #yakuza #yakuza_series #majima #goro_majima #fanart

Maybe I'll finish this one someday but I kinda like it as is, plus it really reflects my mood today

Bestie Bay (sketched during today's meetup)

#art #sketch #portrait

Why thank you :D

Bonus (my shiny oil slick leggings absolutely slay and this is not up for discussion)

#cosplay #ferngully #Hexxus

So I competed in a guest cosplay contest at a retro fandom convention (my random soundtrack was Sailor Moon opening song lmao), didn't get a prize but these pics are awesome
You can really feel the toxicity 🌚💚

#cosplay #ferngully #Hexxus

Yes, I'm binge-rewatching Ren&Stimpy, can you tell? :D

When I was 5 (-ish), I watched Ren&Stimpy for the funnies.

When I was 15, I watched Ren&Stimpy for the funnies and the innovative animation style.

Now I'm 25 and I watch Ren&Stimpy for the funnies, the innovative animation style and toxic yaoi.

Let's shame people for shaming people for the things they like /j