Lawler Hix

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(We raided @maxwellflyweight.bsky.social tonight who is also doing art.)

(Ty to @8e-3t.vtubers.social for the raid. <3)

YouTube video by Keido Honda (as Pianta Musica) "Memory" Guitar Cover with Tabs [COWBOY BEBOP]

"Memory" cover by www.youtube.com/watch?v=-WFd...

#envtuber #vtuber #VRMPosingDesktop #eldenwood #lulzlore #femboyfriday

bratwurst

bratwurst

new york strip

new york strip

As promised.

Happy #femboyfriday.

And Happy Independence Day.

I'm thirty fucking five, I don't want to die and this is all I have to show for it.

No fucking promises.

I either fix fucking everything or, beyond posting those pictures of grilled food I promised- I'm getting the fuck out.

I didn't make these shitty social media accounts and waste three and a half years of my life just to be a typical fucking twitter freak.

-isn't mastubatory self affirmations. No more vagueposts. No more clicktivism. No more useless, feel good slop that accomplishes nothing, promotes *nothing,* solves nothing.

I'm fucking done.

Fucking figures it'd take drinking to come to this fucking conclusion when the answer was obvious.

I'm not graduating. Its not a hiatus either. I don't have dates, it could be as easily as tomorrow or the next week or month or maybe I won't come back because I found something and someones else.

I just want to actually do shit again. That isn't reskeeting fucking bullshit or mildly funny posts-

When was the last fucking time I ever contributed jack shit to the world, huh?

-about anything anymore is more effort than its fucking worth. And yet I know it must be possible because for every outrage bait dramatuber enshittifying the internet, there are thousands more, quietly doing cool shit on the regular and popping online going, "Hey, look at this cool thing I made!"

-It'll just be "this is what i'm doing, this is when it'll be, and i'm showing up no matter what, unless I literally die first."

I hate what I've become so much. I hate what goes for a "vtuber" these days- at least in this glorified echobox. I hate so much that struggling to give a shit-

-hopium fumes. And don't even get me started on bluesky, or indie vtubers period. I've written enough about that. If I ever have anything of worth to share online, ever again, which isn't me making a vrchat slut avi or posting evidence of my increasing alcoholism online, there will be no warning-

-delaying the acknowledgement that I tacitly quit vtubing.

I don't even want to announce anything I'm excited for anymore, or participate in any collabs, or post things I'm working on because they might fall through, and so far, consistently have. I'm tired of shoving shit out and huffing-

I'm going to level with y'all.

This vtuber you all know has been effectively dead ever since the last big drama. My attempts to come back have been sad at best, half assed ar worst. I've moved on to other things, poorly, which helped filled the void for awhile but I feel like those were just-

average youtuber merch

and we all play our part.

until we tire of acting, and jump off of it.

DERELIKT is finally on Steam! Share & Wishlist to keep up with development: store.steampowered.com/app/3810510/...

DERELIKT is a narrative retro FPS inspired by Alien Resurrection, Doom 3 and System Shock 2, with a dash of lovecraftian cosmic horror.🪐

To finish my story (so far): While I secured funding to finish development, I am currently self-publishing #DERELIKT.

That means I can freely show you the dev process!🔍
But it also means we currently have no Publisher assisting with marketing or ports.🥲

what

This is true. You need an active imagination to draw kink art, because kink art isn't something you can just search up reference images for on the internet.

We have to figure out where shapes go and where. Kink art is great exercise for drawing practice.

May today be a day where something goes just as planned.

so much performance art.

No Femboys and Fightans tonight.

Sorry, heart isn't in it.

I'm just going to drink and stare at a wall.

and grill stuff i guess.

yep

i try

If there's something you think you -absolutely- need Windows for, I bet i can find you a way to make it work, or at least an alternative.

A good majority of Windows only apps work perfectly fine in Wine.

Dual booting is an option too if nothing else works. Use Windows as little as possible.

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#oc #ocart