Jess

I try to not need. Or want. Ever.

I dared do a little of that.

That was a very fucking poor choice.

Guess hope is definitely out the fucking window.

Rex insisted it wasn’t going to rain. I assured him it would about 9. I missed by about 20 minutes with my estimate and am now a drown rat from my walk. 😂

Ended up being 8 1/2 hours for the tow truck - towing another truck - to come rescue me.

Top Gun Towing & Transport are amazing, btw. Very communicative. Very honest about their times. Very friendly.

My Uber driver was a fucking saint and got a 50% tip on a 30 mile drive.

Now cuddles, and sleep.

While I spend 8 hours on the side of I-10, 30 miles from home, I can’t help but be absolutely livid at AAA for letting me sit for an hour before they even actually filed my request for a tow - followed by repeated “just calling to tell you you’re stuck for hours” calls.

Sometimes you get the chance to learn new things about people.

Like today, I learned T is an outside vomiter when given that as an option.

Me: I‘m probably going to need you to touch my ass aggressively later.
T: Okay. -pause- What?
Me: Yeah, I have a cramp in my left ass cheek. If it doesn’t go away I might need you to get a little rough with it. Like bury your elbow in it.

This is the magic that keeps relationships alive, I guess.

My friend’s husband printed this guy and several friends for me.

Legitimately carried him in everywhere with me and excitedly showed him off.

Well… if “the Autism Wars” are going to start back up again, I will be joining in on the side of Autism (and Autistic People). ⚔️🏹🧨💣

I‘m glad I‘m a safe place for my people, and his people, and that mostly they’re just becoming our people.

“We can set the money aside now. We can try IVF. I want a baby with you.”

If that isn’t love, I don’t know what is.

Maybe the beast drunknthing I’ve every written: 😂

Holy fuci I’m drink. Drink. Drunk.

FourLoko does indeewd notnfick aeound.

And autocorrect only kinsa helpszz as.

Hi it’s Terrance I’m kinda drunk too wash You marsupials please 🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆

“You look good with ravaged hair” is 1000% the compliment I didn’t know I needed.

What is love, if not your man‘s friends calling you in a crisis and waking you up instead of your man, and then getting to tease him about stealing his friends?

Hormones are bullshit and my brain chemistry sucks.

You know, in case you were curious.

He said yes.

My brain decided he said yes not because he wanted to but because he doesn’t mind the idea.

I‘m gonna fix that after he brings us our 3:30am snacks. 😂 So glad I have a man who will make us food and I can just be like „hey my brains being a dick and says x“ to, and he‘ll fix it.

In the next 15 hours, I‘ll be giving him this ring and asking him to marry me.

Wednesday, his ring gets here. 12 days earlier than expected.

Saturday, I get to play the best game of Magic in my life, in which I get to play a custom 1-cost artifact and then propose when I tap it.

I hope he says yes, but understand it’s not *me* if he says no.

My friends moved yesterday.

I’m sad.

#booksky

We’re getting squash blossoms and I’m very excited for that.

Du hast mich angelogen. Ich weiß das.

Aber… warum bin ich nicht gut genug?

2 more bags of dirt and my carrots and green onions get popped into this disaster.

Today, I started my day by trying so very hard to go back to sleep.

Then I ended up outside in a dress drilling drain holes in my staging box so my plant babies don’t drown in all this rain, because life.

Got myself a fun little case on pneumonia.

Life is… a fucking lot recently.

I‘m not good y‘all.

My heart and head aren’t in a lot of agreement because I‘ve seen things and I‘ve had time to ask questions and none of it adds up.

All of this sucks. I cry a lot. I‘m so exhausted from constant masking.

Neither of us got much sleep last night - pretty sure he got less than me, and I got about 3 hours - and he came to cuddle with me and promptly fell asleep.

Now he‘s snoring softly on me and I don’t ever want to move again. 💕

Recently, T‘s friend discovered I have kids - that are both in their early 20s.

I forget that while T knows my age, everyone assumes I‘m a lot younger than I am, so watching him try and fail to do that math was a good time. 😂

I‘m 40 for a few more months. T is 25. it makes no sense, but it‘s good.

You know when you give solid relationship advice but then also drive yourself batshit insane not following it?

Yeah, that.

Rex and I have been playing a *lot* of MtG since I introduced him and he’s so in love. I built an otter deck, and then got the Kitsa, Otterball Elite art card and had a zip pouch from the smoke shop that fit perfectly for my box.