Andy | 20 | He/Him

still stuck in finals hell ): procrastinating studying for my exam that’s in 2 hours by looking at old spencer and damien comics — this one from a few years ago of their first kiss

stuck in finals hell but all i want to do is write. i do not care about strong edge colorings of graphs 😭 i want to tear my mc’s life to shreds so i can build it back up

every time somebody tells me my characters feel like real people my heart grows three sizes bigger like the grinch

they have cosmic astral sex ok?

whoops fell off the face of the planet — i’ve slowly been writing but i’m also in a VERY time intensive production at my local community theater and doing 6 shows a week 😭

in the meantime, have a picture of my partner’s cat

Woke Halloween. Jay, dressed as a vampire, is saying, “Pronoun candy please.” Arin, dressed as a skeleton, is asking for “Bisexual Biden Chocolate?” Sophie, dressed as a witch, is asking for “Gluten-free antifa caramel?” And Nix, dressed as a pirate, is asking, “do you have non-binary treats”

happy halloween everyone :) don’t let the woke mind virus get you
🏷️ #ocs #art #ocsky #ocart #originalcharacters

dawg i'm meeting with my prof today about one of my pieces and i'm NERVOUS (and also dressed like dio brando.)

this tumblr post was my bible in middle/high school

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i think the biggest tell that i was a fanfiction writer before an original fiction writer is the fact that i can make a single kiss stretch 500+ words without even trying

been working on rewriting and maybe moving around the first kiss scene — currently can’t decide whether or not to keep it at the end or move it to the beginning. on one hand, beginning gives context to how they got into this whole fwb sitch, but i’m not sure i want to give that context immediately 🤔

I'm happy to announce that in the middle of the night I woke up with the realization of what I needed to do to fix the story I'm working on, and instead of saying "I'll remember it" or scrawling it illegibly I reached for my phone and actually wrote it down.

Time skips through summer, to the first weekend of senior year. Damien and all of his friends are still at St. Augustine's, while a freshly 18 Spencer enrolls in the closest public school. All of their friends go to Damien's house for a sleepover, and things are finally starting to look up. [END]

Spencer's dad shows up with the rest of Spencer's things three days later. All ties are officially cut, and all Spencer has is Damien.

The first few days are tense, as they anticipate the possible repercussions of Spencer's leaving. Joanna agrees to handle her and Damien's parents, and Spencer and Damien attempt to fall into normalcy as two 17 year olds barely in a relationship living together.

It's Spencer, and Damien bolts from the party to go get him. Spencer reveals that his dad started talking to him again right before the end of the school year, and all he wanted to do was fix things. They get back to Damien's, and that's it. Spencer has no plans of ever going back.

Move out day arrives, and Spencer is supposed to meet Damien to leave with him. Spencer doesn't show up. Damien is devastated, falling into a depression in the first weeks of summer. For the first time, he attends his parents charity gala without a plus one. It's at this gala that he gets a call.

It is revealed that almost a year ago -- this garden is where they kissed for the first time, meeting accidentally when they had both gone there while upset about separate things. In present, Spencer breaks down, lost about what to do. Damien offers an escape plan, and Spencer agrees.

Spencer completely isolates himself, relapsing into old self harm habits, and Damien and his friends are left lost. Until one night, Damien and Spencer meet by accident in the church garden where they had both gone to clear their heads. They get in one last fight and Spencer breaks.

Until 3 weeks later, after Spencer told Leah that he couldn't be with her, and Damien and Spencer are called into Father Abraham's office. Leah told him everything she knew, and their entire world collapses. Spencer's dad stops speaking to him, and Spencer stops speaking to everybody.

He tells Spencer he either needs to be in and out -- no more of this casual hooking up any more, and Spencer finally says yes to being together. Things seem fine, until Leah stumbles across him. After Damien talking to her, she seems to have agreed to keep quiet about it for now, even hurt.

In an attempt to fix things with Leah at least, Spencer goes to prom with her. Damien still isn't speaking to him. Things are going well until Spencer has a meltdown and leaves her at the dance, ending up wandering the halls of the school until he finds Damien. There, Damien gives him an ultimatum.

The next morning, Spencer calls Leah over. She likes him, he knows this, and knows that he should want to do things with her. He tries, and fails to have sex with her, accidentally telling her that he can't, "not with her". Now Damien and Leah are both upset with him.

While his dad is gone, Spencer gets drunk on stolen communion wine, and calls Damien over in an attempt to have sex with him again. Sober this time, Damien refuses, citing their previous agreement to not do this, leading an explosive argument that leaves Damien not speaking to Spencer.

Things go back to normal after this. At one point, Spencer asks Damien how he knew he liked men, to which Damien tells him that he thinks Spencer already knows the answer. Everything is business as usual until the weekend before prom, Spencer's dad goes a few states over for a mission trip.

They're about to have sex when Spencer takes off his pants and Damien notices old self-harm scars, and then instead of doing anything, Spencer has a panic attack and the mood is ruined. Once Spencer calms down, they go back to bed and don't talk about what just happened.

At the end of the night, Spencer and Damien sneak off to a guest room. Damien starts off apologizing about Marissa, but as always happens when they're in a room alone together, they end up kissing. They're significantly more drunk than usual, and Spencer wants more.

During a sleepover at Emma's, fueled by plenty of alcohol, the group of friends (and Leah) play a slew of terrible party games, including spin the bottle and truth or dare. Spencer kisses Leah, and watches Damien tongue kiss Marissa. Again -- he's not jealous.

"Something different" plagues Spencer through the holiday months as he grows closer with Damien's friends and continues his casual hooking up with Damien as it starts to become routine -- and thus no longer as exciting.

He brings a girl who had expressed interest in the past, and Spencer tries to deny that he's jealous about it. After going to see a play that Gabriel is in, this results in a conversation where Damien brings up the idea of something different, and then tells Spencer that Leah has a crush on him.

They don't talk about the party afterwards, mostly because Spencer doesn't remember half of it. After the Halloween party comes Damien's parents biannual charity gala -- the event he always takes a plus one to. This time, though, he realizes he doesn't have anybody he wants to bring.