SHIT_PISSER

I've been journaling for hours and it's not getting better. I HAVE to tell Ton I don't want to fucking do this anymore. I seriously need to cut this guy off. I need to die too but that's unfeasible right now

Whew bad idea

During my first session my therapist said what I expected and that the goal is going to be to find a way to live with loneliness and that everyone feels like this and blah blah blah. Yeah man I know I'm not special. If it were so common you'd think it'd be easier to find other people like me

Oh my god shut the fuck up already you fucking annoying freak

I seriously don't know what to do anymore. Everything I do is stupid and worthless. I thought I was doing okay but I'm just fucking not, I will never be normal and the plan is to now assume I will die alone. Terminal. Fatal.

View Jürgen Geuter’s graphic link Jürgen GeuterJürgen Geuter • 2ndVerified • 2nd Research Director @ART+COM | Independent writer/theorist | Keynote Speaker | AI-Deinfluencer | #LudditeResearch Director @ART+COM | Independent writer/theorist | Keynote Speaker | AI-Deinfluencer | #Luddite 22h • 22 hours ago • Visible to anyone on or off LinkedIn Follow Very few narratives piss me off as much as the whole "let's give marginalised people LLM assistants for inclusion". Inclusion does not mean giving marginalised people shittier versions of a thing: Sure you can give kids from poorer backgrounds an LLM to "learn" but what you are saying is that poor people are not worth having trustworthy sources of information. When you say that older or lonely people can talk to chatbots to feel less alone you are saying that some people are not worth a social life. This is a deeply inhumane perspective that goes actively against the ideas and ideals of inclusion. likesupportcelebrate 186 You and 185 others

Regret to report that there has been another good linkedin post

I should be so happy that Bolsonaros in prison but instead I'm fucking miserable that I have no one to celebrate that with. It's always about how fucking much of a loser I am and I don't understand why I can't just be fucking normal

Idk what I'm supposed to do anymore. I can't wait for therapy. He won't fix me because nothing can. But it'll make me feel less terrible about myself. I don't know what I keep doing wrong.

I've been watching self help shit all night because I'm clearly not ready for polite society. I'm never going to be ready to be around others. Everything boils down to "stop caring but like, not that much" so yeah I can't actually do this right now

YouTube video by Rina Sawayama - Topic This Hell

music.youtube.com/watch?v=1WWT... ah rina sawayama, she really hit it out of the gate with that debut. her follow up single was really good and honestly the video made me cry lol

yeah post what youre listening to now!

that being said, the intensity IS relatable. my aoty is where i put on my pseudo intellectual hat

batemans analysis gets memed by people who dont understand that he was being a fucking freak about music as a white upper class signifier. he fucking outright says huey lewis and the news are 'too black' lmao. its supposed to be a reactionary and intense

all music reviewers sound like patrick bateman at a certain point

YouTube video by ODD EYE CIRCLE - Topic Girl Front

music.youtube.com/watch?v=bAY0... such a fun track. i really like maximalist production. i think girl front was kind of a breakthrough for kpop because its BIG but also pretty tight and snappy. idk its a bop

fuck it, listening now thread

honestly i expect every musician to suck lol but at least make good music like damn!!

you really deserve it. its nice that shes really trying for you.

i understand why people drop dead from sadness. i really truly never thought this was possible until recently and now i think im going to die of a heart attack instead of suicide. i dont get it man

i constantly think 'i survived so much. i can survive this.' and it used to work but now im like ugh WHY do i have to keep surviving, i have been in survival mode since i was a year old

It's interesting that there is a Stairway to Heaven but a Highway to Hell.

lmfao it took me a second

i dont like led zeppelin either but i think theyre legit talented. i seriously dislike ac/dc. i think theyre a hair metal band its still not cringe to like

i fucking hate ac/dc. maybe hate is a strong word but i think theyre incredibly overrated

oh ;_____;

beginning to suspect that my prior sexual experiences have given me a warped idea of the subject matter. that's no excuse to be bad at it though. if I don't get a good grade in Sex I'll never get adopted and I'll say in the orphanage forever

y'all mind if a white boy gets a little autoandrophillic with it?

a tweet from Hunty Otacon (@justlet_melive) u consumed that media so ethically, babe. you're so getting into heaven

why feel bad for yourself when you can listen to the middle? sometimes i catch myself feeling pathetic and for some reason that knocks me out of it.

the middle by jimmy eat world just came on and for some reason i dont understand, i IMMEDIATELY feel better....i dont even like this song. ive never liked this song. everything WILL be alright wtf