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DesMephisto

@desmephisto.bsky.social

She/her, used to be somebody now I'm finally just me. Level 2 autistic, I'm smart but break easily, be kind.

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I can't figure out how to take care of myself. I just feel constantly stressed, scared, worried, anxious. Every day feels like walking on glass.

I just feel like I'm going to fall apart, I'm so weary.

05.08.2025 00:05 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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@jacs.aliancacromatica.com.br congrats, msg me when you get a chance

05.08.2025 00:02 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 4    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 3    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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I'm super late to this giveaway due to health and mental health reasons.

Blizzard gave me a couple Mists of Pandaria classic epic editions to give away.

NA/SA/OCE only

To enter retweet and comment on your favorite part of Mists of Pandaria

I'll draw winner in 3 days

#WoW_Partner #MoPClassic

31.07.2025 01:16 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 11    ๐Ÿ” 11    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 12    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'm fighting for IPL but kaisers denied it twice so now I have to appeal to other programs, get some trans agencies in, etc.

Worsened dysphoria, it...fuckkkk I'm so tired.

31.07.2025 01:19 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

All the medical appointments, health complications, appeals for insurance denials, current climate of things I don't know how any trans folk are functioning in this damn world right now.

I have permanent damage to my lip and cheek from both electrolysis and laser hair removal.

31.07.2025 01:19 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Also have an additional key to giveaway on stream.

TBD, most likely tomorrow if I can work up the strength.

31.07.2025 01:16 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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I'm super late to this giveaway due to health and mental health reasons.

Blizzard gave me a couple Mists of Pandaria classic epic editions to give away.

NA/SA/OCE only

To enter retweet and comment on your favorite part of Mists of Pandaria

I'll draw winner in 3 days

#WoW_Partner #MoPClassic

31.07.2025 01:16 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 11    ๐Ÿ” 11    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 12    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Of course I remember! I loved and was grateful for every single person in our community. Made sure I did my best to give everyone my be attention โค๏ธ

05.07.2025 00:52 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Honestly surprised how good I've gotten. I don't have any skill to say the least but I had a vision for the eyes and I love how I got the color

04.07.2025 21:48 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Your name is the same as on twitch right? Think iirc your name was in purple. ๐Ÿ˜… Hope you're doing well

04.07.2025 21:46 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Photos rarely capture the reality :/ I had to go in person for them to see the damage on my lip. Also camera angles play a role so I feel less dysphoric.

Also it's different having been born amab. I feel the urge to cut off my lip to be rid of the hair. It's that bad.

04.07.2025 21:45 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Trying to cheer up. The facial hair is so dysphoric. I feel so close and so far away with not being able to get it treated anymore.

04.07.2025 21:18 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 9    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

"If you can't handle me at my worst you don't deserve me at my best" - person who is constantly the worst.

30.06.2025 14:02 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

So I'm really going thru it right now but I have two epic editions of Mist of Pandaria - Classic to giveaway. It's on my list of things to set up and do but right now it's fairly low on my priorities. I'll keep y'all informed.

29.06.2025 21:11 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

My eyes really fucking hurt. I'd really enjoy having less to cry about.

28.06.2025 06:26 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I very much do. It's incredibly noticable :(

27.06.2025 23:59 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Really struggling emotionally. I've been having an insanely hard couple of months and was just informed my face is further permanently damaged from hair removal to the point I might not be able to anymore.

I need emotional support.

27.06.2025 22:43 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Just a reminder if you're gay and don't support trans folk you're a god damn traitor and don't belong at pride.

Stonewall started with trans women of color, they led the fucking charge. Show some respect you sad pathetic cowards.

23.06.2025 22:28 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 7    ๐Ÿ” 1    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

A child has the right to live their life, this political party is abysmal. A bunch of fucking nosy karens who became president of the HoA and got tanks telling everyone else how to live.

19.06.2025 03:32 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 6    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

The result was irreprehensible harm to my body. I gained so much weight that to this day the loose skin constantly gives me body dysmorphia, I have an eating disorder (that's mostly managed) because I don't even know my accurate weight.

That was the decision of a doctor, not a decision of my own.

19.06.2025 03:32 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 4    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

On that subject of permanent, my mental health was incredibly poor as a teenager. Nothing felt right. I voluntarily went to a mental hospital.

There I was taken off Adderall and not weened off or given any way of addressing I had been on a stimulant for 5 years at that point.

19.06.2025 03:32 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 5    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

In most instances it is purely puberty blockers til adulthood. I'm well aware the current political power likes them young so precocious puberty is something they're into but plenty of women and men don't experience puberty until 17 or 18.

19.06.2025 03:32 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 4    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Today's SCOTUS ruling is borderline murder for thousands of children.

I knew since the age of 8. All the struggles I had growing up as a kid while not better, would have been lessened significantly had I known and had access to the care I needed.

The focus on "Permanent" is absurd.

19.06.2025 03:32 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 8    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
No Kings text with Defias brotherhood from WoW

No Kings text with Defias brotherhood from WoW

14.06.2025 19:14 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 497    ๐Ÿ” 108    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 9    ๐Ÿ“Œ 5
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Uniques for 3.26

Forever the obsessive nerd that I am I put together a #pathofexile unique and anoint notable guide for Mercenaries in 3.26

docs.google.com/spreadsheets...

12.06.2025 21:22 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

My fucking mouth hurts so much ๐Ÿ˜ญ

I don't remember it hurting this much when I got my wisdom teeth removed

11.06.2025 04:47 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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The pain is real right now

11.06.2025 02:17 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Drugged out on Valium waiting for extraction.

11.06.2025 00:30 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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??? What

10.06.2025 15:36 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
She hers beanie, blue pink white lipstick and eye shadow alongside nails and Pink trans flag heart shirt.

She hers beanie, blue pink white lipstick and eye shadow alongside nails and Pink trans flag heart shirt.

Ready for #LAPride trans rights are human rights qts.

08.06.2025 17:38 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 9    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

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