Still dealing with heavy depression. I'm better than yesterday though and feel more in control of things. Eating is a chore, though. I'm about to eat some mac and cheese which isn't the most nutritious option, but it's something I will eat and I need calories.
Finally feeling calm again. I hate when I feel like I can't control my emotions and I just shut down. First time in a while it got that bad. Was legit terrifying.
Not going to push myself just yet though. Still need to sleep and just rest tonight and tomorrow.
Just a reminder that CFOs and other folks of their C-suite kind will say the most batshit loco thing to the people who create the products and services because there's no incentive for them to understand anything but their executive function. (JPG excerpt proffered by OP)
Like I said, I have therapy today and then I plan to sleep because I don't think I've had more than 10 hours in 48 hours. I just find it so hard to be honest with people about what's happening inside.
It's so hard to believe I'm a good person. I feel like if I were ever truly honest people would hate me or think I'm just really dumb at best. Sometimes I think I am only capable of bringing misery to others.
I know this will pass an I probably should delete this. It's embarrassing.
Being mentally ill is such bullshit.
Have therapy today, but scared because I am not doing well. Anxiety is running rampant. Definitely in a sleep deficit and convinced I don't deserve to be loved.
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Also just fun to look at my blorbos and think about how much they love each other.
I mean, I know how to crop and resize, but I mean to make it look pretty when I put them all together. :)
Working on another gpose prompt thing and doing a comic again. Learning from past mistakes and also learning as I go about how to crop and resize some images.
Frustrating but also been enjoyable because I'm stretching those creativity muscles.
My period started two days early and I am pretending my body doesn't exist below the waist.
Mine is a bit more complex, but working through it with my therapist. It was my goal this year to just be kind to myself.
Being nice to myself is hard.
No one cares, but I'm high.
Telling my friend I want the pickle stork to visit me.
I can't compete with this.
Cis people need to pay attention to the way they communicate this. They freely admit that after all of their research, they came up with zero evidence that HRT was harmful.
Then they banned it anyway, claiming their inability to find a reason is a reason in of itself.
Zoomers are so cooked, we just got a legendary hot Calvin Klein ad with Dakota Johnson & all they can keep saying is how this is “for the male gaze” 😭 you dumb bitches it’s a fucking underwear ad you’re SUPPOSED to be hot in it youtu.be/pHetI7RoWCw?...
“Piracy is the most effective form of artistic distribution these days. So be it.”
-Werner Herzog on NPR just now 🔥
How did I accomplish that? No idea. Talent, I guess.
At least I know I can easily replicate it just going to take focus. Might try to do it after I eat a little snack or just try again tomorrow.
Spent several minutes setting up the perfect gpose shot, adjusted props, etc.
...and forgot to take the actual screenshot.
I love yall. I just wanted to let you know that.
If anyone can send me a few bucks, it’ll be deeply appreciated. I hate that I have to keep doing this. I hate that I have to keep asking for help. I am trying so hard but I keep coming up short.
Time change is fucking me up. lol What do you mean it's almost 7pm????
Anyway, going to disappear into the gposing mines.
I'm so sorry. He had many years of love.
Wanted to gpose last night, but then I spent an hour finding the right glam to suit my vision...
Finished all the paths of the regular Variant Merchant's Tale tonight with the spouse and a friend.
Final boss was hard.
For two days now I've had Dancing Green's theme in my head.
I don't know why!
Going live for a short stream of Overwatch! Might finish my DPS placements, but also I'm a wee bit on the tired side so we'll see how I feel.
twitch.tv/casual_jacob_
this is an article that i'm guessing a lot of people will be able to relate to!!
