Em

I kinda feel bad about it, but I find Will's place in this entire season hilarious

Just got done watching the first season of The 3 Body Problem

Favorite episode was episode 8, by far. And my favorite character is definitely Saul. Most relatable by far

I kinda hate that I can comb out my hair and you can't really tell the difference. It's still just curls

Overall, I loved it and I'm so grateful for the person who got me the tickets for my birthday

And I think she played a song that isn't out yet, and that was pretty great. When she started I felt confused with the crowd, as I was wondering if this was just a song I had missed. But I just got swept along, and it went pretty hard. Curious what the studio version would sound like

It was one of my first times going to a show this big, I'm a lot more used to smaller shows and venues, so it was kinda crazy seeing so many people packed together like this. I'd be willing to go to one like this again, but it'd definitely want to be in a bigger group with friends

There were so many people, and the energy was great. At least in my area there were people dancing and having fun. Night started out with a lot of phones out, but as the concert kept going there were fewer and fewer, with everyone just enjoying the show and each other's company

The concert was a lot of fun! I love how it really leaned into the mixtape nature of her project, being a good mix of the original beats from Alligator Bites Never Heal as well as classics from OutKast, Nas, Erykah Badu and more. It felt like a tribute to the music she loves

YouTube video by Westside Gunn - Topic EGYPT (Remix)

Excited for the Doechii concert tonight

Still wishing I could just block artists on YT Music

YouTube video by Ghost Town DJ's - Topic My Boo (Hitman's Club Mix)

At one time, I used to resent music that became popular or entered the mainstream because of memes and tend. But why should I resent good music just because of why I heard it? Why be upset that this great music is heard by more people?

If the music is good, it'll last. If not, it'll be forgotten

YouTube video by The Nu'rons - Topic Hurry up Tomorrow

Perfect for the night vibes tonight

Or something like that

Yet I still can't talk without a filter, because there's always that voice of "what if", even though I know practically nobody will ever see this. But "what if". So I self-censure leaving many things unsaid and staying unsatisfied with anything and everything

And I feel like I have nobody to talk about this with, do I talk to myself. But then that doesn't feel satisfying so I speak it into the void here. Somehow expecting no response yet being disappointed when there is nothing. It's just confirmation to all the feelings of being insignificant

But then why vocalize that shit? So they know I understand? This isn't a fucking classroom

It certainly doesn't help with communicating with people. It's not like I'm explaining them in universal ways other people understand it. Like, what does the average person know about the difference between 1 and 2 handed bowling???

Maybe I'm just doing this to make the connections for myself

Why does it feel like I only speak in metaphor and similes. Why can't I just say what I say. Is it because I want to sound smart? Is it because I don't think other people would understand what I'm saying otherwise? Or maybe I just don't know how to speak them straight, so I use roundabout ways

I need to get back on my writing project

I wish I could look up and see stars

I like being high a lot more than being drunk. Being drunk doesn't stop me from thinking

Maybe I should start sewing again