Angry Former Public Servant

The topic of Grief is not an easy topic to navigate, even harder to capture on cinema. It is a deeply personal journey that ebbs and flows erratically throughout the course of ones life

Hamnet from Chloe Zhao captured it. She captured it perfectly. I'm still thinking about it long after watching it

If it's about technical/pricing/other issues outside of the movie or product, there are ways to address this. or GOD forbid they can actually use that piece of junk AI software they have some community notes section. Either way, I think it's hot garbage.

A list of one star reviews for a movie on amazon complaining about technical aspects or amazon pricing. Not reviews about the actual movie.

The other worst type of person on this planet - Those who "review" products but instead will give low ratings b/c of other issues not related to the actual product.

Perhaps I just want to see actual reviews of the movie? This is why I've stopped caring about Amazon reviews.

That is beautiful. Thank you for those words.

My only answer I have is “I’m here”. Being HERE is testament of my resilience, strength, and my refusal to let uncertainty destroy my drive. It’s what keeps me going. I’ll be ok. For those that are hurting, please know that i’m sharing what strength I have and to let you know “you’re here” is enough

It hurts. So much. The pain has dulled with time but now I am faced with trying to answer the ever present question of “what’s next? Where to?What’s your goal?” and for the first time in my life….i honestly don’t know and that has paralyzed me with this unfamiliar fear of uncertainty of “me”

But in the end, the most painful grieving i’ve done is….

I grieve…for what was once me. The me that I had built almost 20+ long and hard worked years. I lost me.

It’s not just work. I loved my career in public health bc I knew the amazing good it did. It was inextricably tied to my own character

I grieve for the many families and beautiful souls we have destroyed for the pursuit of a xenophobic ideal of “America first”. I grieve for the death of the tiny bit of decency this nation once had and taken for granted, now replaced with unapologetic dehumanizing greed and malignant nationalism.

I grieve the loss of the amazing colleagues and friends I made at the agency. I grieve for the senseless decimation of our talented federal workforce we had. I grieve for the many sick/vulnerable populations that will needlessly die to this bastardized notion of science.

In that same year, I also had to say goodbye to my cat mako, who passed away after courageously battling cancer for half the year. She was the 2nd cat I ever had to say goodbye to and it destroyed me. I still sob at seeing the food she use to eat the store. Even just a random creak in the house

Today marks the 1 year anniversary where I was illegally fired amongst thousands of other US federal employees. I had worked for more than 10 years in the service of the US federal government and while it had its rough times, I loved this job. And on that day, it was all taken away from me.

If you’re STILL confused and/or surprised about the racist AI trash that was posted by our fascist despot, sorry to say, but YOU might be the problem.

Fuck this year

Honestly all this intense arguments over the spending bill while we continue to fund a domestic fascist police group and international petty projects... Yes of course it bothers me. Federal employees were the first to be gutted. Unfairly/Illegally. All to save $$ that was eclipsed by MORE spending.

Living your best life

10 day weather report ranging from -13 degrees Fahrenheit to 34

Oh. Hello frigid cold.

China, just @ Korea next time

And yet…

“The Department of Homeland Security is an exception, with headcount barely fluctuating…”

Glad to see my former salary go to hiring more of that departments goons.

“After exhaustive review” = “We just went with vibes”

“International consensus”= “we just went with the most convenient example like Denmark”

Their recommendations goes against the international scientific consensus. So. Please stfu.

And that number WILL continue to go down with this group.

Don’t be fooled by Marjorie Taylor Greene’s redemption act | Opinion U.S. Rep. Marjorie Taylor Greene was not a bystander to Trumpism. To suggest she merely misunderstood the man now strains credulity beyond its limits

The fact that people are actually entertaining/willing to give MTG a second chance despite her years of vile, despicable, deplorable, and inhumane treatment of her fellow humans is evidence enough that we live in the dumbest fucking timeline ever

I’d invite folks to please stop suggesting that hand sanitizer is the key to preventing norovirus.

All of you who have followed us for so many years know better now that SOAP AND WATER is the only effective method in reducing norovirus cases. Hand sanitizers do diddly squat against this virus.

I can’t even recover from being sick in peace. (Jk her screams heal me)

We do indeed live in the stupidest timeline

No evidence

Just vibes

And now we’re about to put babies at risk

Day 2.

Committee meetings still seem to be a confusing concept to these geniuses

If you need any further evidence on why CDC is broken, just look at the past few ACIP meetings.

These “experts” can barely run a structured meeting with appropriate due process.

You trust that these charlatans know what’s best for America’s health when they can barely understand the word “AGENDA”?

Ignoring and not talking about AIDS does not make it go away Donny.

I cannot think of a single time where a country or multi-lateral entity has EVER chosen not to commemorate World AIDS Day.

But don't worry. We took care of those nasty seed oils.

Junji Ito is king

* whole wall of bookshelves…