Sol/shiloh (MINOR)

Starting to think it might just be a underlying mental health issue connected to my depression or anxiety. Maybe both. I started taking extra of my anxiety pills, but it hasn’t really helped

Some people see it as me just being a perfectionist. But it’s so deeply ingrained in me that it’s not that anymore.

People think it’s a one time occurrence every once and awhile.

But it’s everytime I pick up that pencil. Something I once loved now gives me panic attacks everytime.

And while I’m grateful to the ones that do view my art as good, I will never see it that way. I don’t feel like I stand out. I’m not where I want to be and I feel like I never will be.

And it’s not just comparing, it’s the ambivalence

I’m not writing this for sympathy. I’m writing to just get my feelings out. Cause sometimes you just need to write even if you’re writing to no one.

I honestly don’t know if I’m going to be taking a break from drawing or what. I just need to take a step back.

I go through this so often that people don’t understand. I can have drastic improvement, but that doesn’t mean anything to me.

I’m too the point I shake when I draw my own characters or anyone else’s because I feel like a fuck up and that I’ll never get it right.

So many people want to do art trades or art collabs with me, but I feel like I’m just going to mess up or ruin their character.

Every day I want to draw, but that just ends in another panic attack because I hate my own art.

I know it’s not normal, I’ve always compared my art to others, because it was ingrained in me growing up, i was always being compared, told I wasn’t good enough. And that will always be with me

I do not feel good enough. I honestly just want to give up.

Yknow. I usually hate venting. But sometimes it necessary. I fuckin hate my art dude. I’ll never be able to see what others see. All i see is something that doesn’t look good and I should just stop.

I get panic attacks when i draw now because i just can’t stand looking at my art.

Old ass one from a year ago

Og:

Redone drawing of Silver from double Dow collision

Schools a pain in the ass take a redraw drawing that i made a year ago except i did it in 15 hours rather than 24. For @/doublecollusion.bsky.social

I am so ready to kill my liver and down a whole bottle of ibuprofen.

I have the worst fucking migraine. They’ve been getting worse and worse recently. I just want to go to bed but I can’t cause the pain is unbearable. My vision is blurry and I have tunnel vision.

I truly do wanna draw quality art, but I am actually in excruciating pain

In a loving way for ppl seeing this he’s my best friend, I ofc wish him well

How does one get covid as much as you

You say the oceans rising like I give a shit…. ❤️

You’re welcome

For @doublecollusion.bsky.social

And for a friend of mine here’s theirs @/demytrixi.bsky.social

Is your smile stitched Double down Collision version… done yours truly

With everything bad happening with the US government, please be safe and remember your 4th amendment rights. Be safe no matter where in the world you are

I’ve had a stressful day, take some sketches, warning for artistic nudity

Still can’t draw birds… act as if their gf is on the same canvas and it’s not just a png of a penguin

If oomfs wanna help me design them a gf, she’ll be a penguin… I need help lol

One can only hope

Those living in Venezuela. Please stay safe. ❤️

Is that because Trump leaves then (maybe 2026…. Maybe he will be impeached.)

ArtBunnii lives in Venezuela! Sharing this around as Venezuela is being attacked by an invasion.

New oc alert

The fact that the people on that app are blaming the victims. Some as young as a few months old. Is fucking sick and insane.

This world is fucking sick.

I didn’t type anything, I just posted the link

Time to laugh at the situation