Random Access Memory

Had a terrible dream I accidentally spent 1.5 grand on a single pull of a Leon S Kennedy mobile gacha game I downloaded as a joke which proceeded to ruined me financially and then I woke up with a terrible migraine

ya no kidding

reading thru some docs on victorian metaphysics today theyre doing sum crazy stuff in there

I’d like to see the Sun sometime please if that’s not too much hassle

Consequences of my week long 3-5 hr crash out sleep schedule finally kicked in and I accidentally slept for 10-11 hrs I’m like so cooked

i will go to sleep and wake up on a beautiful february afternoon and it will all be over. than i will do fuck all for the next few days 🙏

handed in the last bit of workload ive been struggling against i think january has finally been defeated

need to workshop a Fatass comm req as a treat i need some kamd pills

omfg i got a tax refund. maybe 2026 will be so good actually

I need to stop waking up at 2pm my sleep schedule is so boned right now. We aren’t getting enough hours of sunlight to play this game

inaccurate to 19th century underwear ik if you dont like it you can take it off him

wait i lied i have one new art. kamdred 2b pants explosion mechanic real not clickbait

Anyway being a creative lately feels like this

Not quite the same but reminded of that one tumblr post that suggested indie game dev was easy all you had to do was exploit desperate newcomers to VA for you, write for you, draw for you ect on cheap reduced rates. Have we all lost the plot. Game dev /neg

We cannae be serious lads. Indie job listing are getting too bold we have to start cyber bullying

I stg every daft cunt with an ao3 account thinks they’re Vladimir Nabokov for writing ‘’ dark topics ‘’ or dumb shit and pull ‘censorship’ out the toy box the same way racist bigots pull out ‘free speech’ to try and get out of the consequences of their behaviour

A man with his hip-waist ratio can be forgiven for any crime meoww 😻

Guy in the jaws of a depressive episode: I just don’t understand I’m so tired recently

This fatigue executive dysfunction whatever shit pissing me off I’m sick of it taking 5437436 years for me to do basic shit

THANK YOUUU 2026 resolution number 35 is to draw them together more hehe

they have a diary/journal they both write in so theyre probably catching with eachother... urgh romance god theyre sickening together (affectionate)

mordred/cwyllog wind down b4 bedtime

OMGGG CONGRATS 🎉

Ignore raiden he’s on court mandated father son time

Anyway take him away from me I’ll fix him later

Aware this is a skill issue but I struggle a lot sometimes getting character faces on model to the one in my head getting it perfect once in a blue moon feels sometimes like a fly blindly banging on the canvas window one two three times before unceremoniously flittering out the window

Promise do won’t do this with every book I read I’ve just legit been thinking about that passage for like the whole day it’s haunted me

Anyway sincerity moment over sorry for the highlights ever since I learned you could highlight pdfs I became a such vandal it is a sickness I know

- something that defined you + were forced to build yourself around. At a certain point it ceases to be a thing done unto you and simply becomes a new layer of dermal burdened with neutrality. Idk he says it best himself I can’t curse or love suffering, and it is a feeling hard to describe

Mental illness moment but as someone who has had the miasma of an Unwellness since childhood (💀) I cant help but be compelled by what he’s saying. Once a kind of suffering has been woven into you long enough for the skin to grow back over it to try and recover from it feels like sacrificing-