Sakura

ur wellbeing comes before freakposting, ur under no obligation to post at the cost of your health, take ur time girl

Uehara Rin for @/chin_jhin, sorry for being gone for a while, been busy.

Sakura what the fuck are you talking about girl shut up. You've been awake for like 14 hours can you stop talking like a lunatic. Get some therapy bitch ffs

I wish I didn't make people care about me. I don't want to make anyone feel bad when I'm gone. But it's just another symptom of my lack of restraint that I can't help but get attached when I know it only makes everyone feel worse in the end.

Maybe if I work at it, I can get better at keeping my thoughts and feelings restrained. But I won't. I'll keep doing nothing, get dragged along by the currents. I'll be like this for however much longer I'm alive. I just wonder how long that's gonna be.

It's weird to think that the awkward cis boy I used to be was better at this whole repression thing than I am now. You would think I'd have gotten better at it over time, not worse. That's just how it goes sometimes, I guess.

An inability to be quiet. That's my problem. I'm not disciplined enough to bite my tongue and restrain my speech and stop myself from instinctively snapping at anyone and everything. I used to be good, when I was in middle school or so, I was quiet and all, but I lost that. I want it back every day.

r slash unpopular opinion but there is a big difference between RPers and captioners in r34 comment sections. RPers are annoying since they're just shilling but captioners are doing a public service and should be thanked as such

people having social lives outside of interacting with me is basically ntr if you think about it

starting to hate one of my partners for being too healthy. kinda both of them honestly but one is better about not shoving it in my face

nevermind it got smited. eh whatever at least I dont gotta be stressed out about it now.

man i havent been on the rp account for the past few days huh
brain being evil ill get back to it soon, its not abandoned, i am far too anxious to just leave it up and never use it. be back whenever my brain lets me.

its a wonder people are even willing to speak to me

season's keq 🎃

i wonder if my constant whining is annoying to read but also im p sure most people dont see the majority of my posts

having replies i need to write but not being in the mood is a horrible feeling because i cant actually write them but also i feel bad about them hanging over my head

dom who only uses microsoft products who, when asking for consent, only gives their partners the options of yes or ask again later

pro tip never juggle 4 different RPs at the same time it will make your skull explode

what if lei heng comes back with long hair and a messed up arm

"Yeah im into misogyny"
<- woman for some fucking reason

they really had to make me violently shiver and my teeth chatter whenever im around anything sexual for some reason

Where does Wolf from the prologue rank

Making quotation mark gestures while I describe my fantasies so the FBI doesn't think im a freak

Im gonna need to learn to source realbooru stuff aren't I

truer words have never been written

i was actually making slow progress on the next fic too, but noooooo do the more personal thing that stresses you out

i am too weak willed for this shit never let me do anything ever
anyway account is made now i gotta make another pinned and look for art and stuff

If we being fr its also because I popped the fuck off constantly (by my standards at least) pretty much every post and the dopamine rush of waking up to like 30 notifications is quite stimulating

Sometimes I check rp tags to see what's going on in that sphere and it always feels like im being tempted by a demon to come back to it

alright chatroom time to once again play the game of "is/was this ex partner abusive enough for me to feel bad about interacting with them again or am i desperate enough to ignore it"